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MALAS

2010-07-20T21:54:00.000-07:00

yeah! being MALAS in awesome! Don't you think so?
think about it.. of what? Being Malas lah! apa lagi....

1. When you feel so malas to wash all your clothes.. instead of you wash it on your own, send it to kedai dobi aje..

2. When you feel so malas to cook... kedai mamak is open 24-7, you may choose.. har..har..har..

3. When you feel so malas to wash all the pinggan mangkuk.... pinggan and mangkuk polystyrene kan banyak kat kedai, guna those ajela.. nyeh..nyeh..nyeh..

4. When you feel malas to wash your car.... apa lagi.. car wash ajela...10 hengget aje...

5. When you feel so malas to drive... ask your husband to drop you office kat office.. habis cerita...

6. When you feel so malas to eat... think of to be on diet.. konon ajelaa..

What else?
that's the only yang aku dapat think of.. can you???
ok, it's time to get back to work.... buhbye!!

:: Kampung Boy ::

2010-07-07T23:38:00.000-07:00

owh well, i'm so in the mode of the LAT-the Town Boy.. Heh.. it reminds me of my childhood time.. Where my dad always buy me the books. Hey! it cost you big notes during my time in the 90s. Bangga habis la bila dapat buku Town Boy ke, Kampung Boy ke, whether in malay or english version, as long as it's LAT! Nak buat camne.. i never had a chance to live in kampung, and feel the surroundings.. setakat setahun sekali balik kampung for raya, doesn't bring anything..

Now i'm in the process of collecting it back!. I want to make it as my collection.. for myself and my future kid/kids..

I don't think that my kid(s) would have the opportunity to feel the kampung life. Aku sendiri pun not fully dapat rasa, apa lagi anak-anak aku kan..

Perhaps, the books might help. To give the rough views of it.. Bahagianya hidup di kampung.. no massive traffic, no dirty air, no big buildings.. haih~...

:: July ::

2010-07-05T21:17:00.001-07:00

June ends! and here comes the July.
Been busy these past few days, so, i don't have much time to talk craps in this blog.
Anyway, many things happened, and it's just too many things that i want to write here. but i don't know on where to start, and which one should i touch first. Well, i decided to write on the selected stories only. Konon nak jaga perasaan orang lain yang probably akan accidentally perasan yang aku ni cakap pasal dia. This is what will happen if that person perasaan yang dia tu besar sangat. And let say if he/she does feel that i write about him/her, there's only one word i wan't to say... "change" ..
Let's go through one by one. Hope i can finish off everything by today.

:: bEing aN eNthusiasT once in A wHiLe iS sOmeThing pELik in mY LiFe ::

2010-06-18T02:29:00.000-07:00

:: iT is So PathEtiC wHen yoU havE to Had onE bAd dAy and This iS hOw yoU fEeL wHen tHe fEeLiNg cOnqUeRs yoU eNtireLy::

2010-06-16T02:28:00.000-07:00

*sms*

tuuut...tuuut..tuuut...

sender : watsup

me: wats down

sender: r u ok?

me: not really. Not so in the mood.

sender: with work?

me: nah.. not really. Im not 'in' today.

sender: wanna chill?

me: where to?

sender: anywhere u wish.

me: pick me up?

sender: where ya at now?

me: menara TM lor... where else i could be.

sender: sure.. what time?

*staring blankly at the monitor*

me: dude.. dont think can make it. Got lotsa things need to be sort out.

sender: well, ok.. r you sure u'r ok?

me: arrrghhh!! don't ask it again. i can assure u that i'm always ok eventhough i'm not.

sender: im leaving back this weekend.

me: really? so when will u come back again?

sender: depends on my work there. if i can manage to pick a slot, i'll come back again..hehe

me: sure you will.

sender: thinking of sending me to airport?

me: can't promise. I have fmly event on that day at my in-laws.

sender: got it! nvm!

me: u sure it's ok? but if u really insist, will drop there for a few minutes.

sender: don't trouble urself. Soon or later i'll still come back pe...

me: ya..ya..ya.. unless if u marry the mat salleh..LOL

sender: obviously NO!

me: Dude.. gtg..

sender: aite, will text u before i leave

me: noted! tc!

2010-06-10T18:21:00.000-07:00

HELP !! HELP !!

Help the seacucumber get back to his house!!

LOL..

sangat takde keje kan..

:: run-a-way ::

2010-06-08T23:26:00.000-07:00

today's update!,

so not in the mood of writing. I have so many aches today. Headache, backache, stomachache and blah..blah..blah..

Just want to update on certain things, and they are;

The bibik, with her own willingness, has ran away from the house.

Soon, my family is going to have a new bibik.

Bongok tak bibik kitorang? she stayed with us for 5 years already, and because of tangkap cintun, sanggup lari kan diri..

Anyway, kitorg pun tak kisah either, because she has this kind of attitude yang selalu buat aku naik hangin!! huh..

ok, will continue later.

:: awwww!! nyah!!

2010-05-26T01:02:00.000-07:00

Just now i was kononnya nak do some cleaning la dalam laptop aku.. Dah ada macam-macam jenis pic yg ada.. yang cun, yg cantik, yang huduh, yg lucah... opss.. itu takde ok dalam simpanan.. Gila??? LOL..

masa tengah syiok tengok gambar one by one, suddenly i saw this one pic yang memang one of my best kenangan la kot. It was freaking hillarious as we were required to transform husband masing-masing from a really tough man to a WOMAN ! LOL.. I wasn't really prepared actually, that's why aku makeup husband aku agak buruk.. *cubaan utk beralasan*.. plus, aku memang out la kot bab-bab nak make up orang ni.. *beralasan lagi*...

si ayu dan si vogue

:: Kau pergi jua.... ::

2010-05-17T02:53:00.001-07:00

Another family finally peacefully passed away today at 3.30Pm.. It is Mokwo.. eventhough mokwo bukanlah nenek aku atau pun moyang aku, tapi, oleh kerana ikatan persahabatan keluarga yang amat kuat, mokwo bukanlah orang lain buat aku sekeluarga.. Mokwo seperti nenek ku juga..

Kenangan aku dengan mokwo tak banyak.. sebab kami jarang jumpa.. and aku pun jarang balik kampung.. 2 kali stahun.. itu perkara biasa.. Bila usia makin meningkat dewasa, makin kuranglah aku jumpa arwah mokwo kat kampung..

waktu aku kecik dulu, memang banyak kenangan aku dengan mokwo.. lebih-lebih lagi kat rumah usang itu.. kenangan aku, lisa, Mat and kak chik dengan arwah mokwo.. terlalu banyak.. Those memories are keep playing now in my mind.. tapi aku tak mampu nak tulis..

Keletah zaman kanak-kanak kami dengan arwah mokwo.. Kami buat mokwo melatah, kami buat mokwo ketawa.. kami buat mokwo marah, dan kami juga buat mokwo tak senang duduk.. Bubur nasi mokwo buat... sangat sedap.. walaupun kami berkongsi makan 4 orang..tapi bubur itu air tangan mokwo.. Bila badan aku sakit, mesti mokwo yang aku cari.. mokwo urut.. mokwo tekan.. sakit.. tapi nikmat lega tu tuhan saja yang tahu.. Indahnya zaman kanak-kanak dengan mokwo..

Makin lama, pendengaran mokwo pun dah tak elok lagi.. Kalau nak cakap dengan mokwo, kena kuatkan suara.... lucu melihat gelagat mokwo bila mokwo tak dengar apa yang orang tanya padanya.. Bila orang tanya "mokwo sihat tak?", mokwo senyum je.. maklumla.. tak dengar.. hehehe... orang semua ketawa.. orang kata "mokwo tak berapa dengar tu..kena jerit sikit.." ... bila kuatkan suara, baru mokwo jawab.. "sihat...." dan mokwo senyum lagi... Manis senyuman mokwo...

Bila sampai masa untuk aku pulang ke KL, mokwo mesti datang rumah ayah ngah untuk ucap selamat jalan pada kami.. Aku suka cium pipi mokwo.. lepas cium pipi mokwo, benda wajib yang aku buat, cubit pipi mokwo... mokwo ketawa sambil tepuk pipi aku.. Ketawa itu....... masih bermain-main di telinga aku..

.......................................... Tapi lepas ni, aku dah tak boleh usik mokwo lagi.. aku dah tak boleh dengar mokwo melatah lagi... aku dah tak boleh cubit pipi mokwo lagi... and... aku dah tak boleh cium pipi mokwo lagi... Mokwo dah tinggalkan kami buat selama-lamanya..

Namun, aku redha dengan ketentuan tuhan.. semua orang akan mati.. cuma kali ini giliran mokwo..

sebagai cucu, aku hanya mampu untuk mendoakan kesejahteraan mokwo di sana.. semoga mokwo di tempatkan dikalangan Al-Jannah.. semoga rumah baru mokwo sentiasa cerah diterangi dgn amalan2 mokwo ketika hayatnya masih ada.. semoga mokwo dijauhkan dari segala seksaan alam barzakh... amin ya-rabb al'alamin..

:: Saturday ::

2010-05-15T04:58:00.000-07:00

weekend yang maveles.. haha..

sangat la kononnya.. Tapi guess what, hari ni satu hari kat dalam bilik je dengan hubby. Hoits!! jangan fikir bukan-bukan.. kami tak buat apa-apa.. Hubby spent most of time fixing on the lappy, and me? on FB.. haha.. terukkan..

ok la.. tiba-tiba malas nk continue updating it. Esok la ye.. daaaaa...

:: Welkam.. Welkam ::

2010-05-14T03:21:00.001-07:00

Wuuuhhuuuuu!!!!!! Eventhough i think that you think my world isn't crazy, but who cares?? hahaha.. menyampah tak? menyampah tak? hehe

anyway, this is my 3rd updates of today.. for the first time ok, aku sangat rajin meng'update'kan semua yang jadi today.. Ekceli, nampak sangat la kan yang hari ni macam ala-ala takde kerja kan.. V(^_^)V..

eyh, sape kata.. hari ini aku menjadi efisyen, menyiapkan semua kerja di awal pagi sebelum the TT Session with the VP (without taking into count yg pending...)

ok la.. all those can be clear out by next week.. this weekend i would probably stay at home and just do whatever i wanna do.. hehe..

owh, lari topic lagi..

ekceli, my last update for today ni nk dedicate to our new Global Alliances GM, En.Ariffin..

hehe.. itu je...

ok la.. its 6.46 already.. what am i still doing here?? its Friday.. working hour ends at 5.. hehe.. see..how good am i.. ok la..chow...

:: CHELSEA ::

2010-05-13T23:33:00.001-07:00

:: TT Session ::

2010-05-13T22:33:00.001-07:00

Well.. updates of today..

Ok.. Before i proceed with my craps, i think i need to confess on something.. Ekceli, i did tried to be ala-ala matured sikit in writing.. I mean.. kononnya nak banyakkan using those bombastic malay words, ayat-ayat bunga sikit.. hehe Unfortunately, things didn't work out. Aku tetap aku ok.. No matter what. Muka macam aku ni, memang lambat la nak menggunakan bahasa dengan betul. Ok.. that's pathetic. Poor me la kan.. Dulu cikgu ajar tak nak dengar.. Ayah beli buku teks, tapi i left it at home and claimed that "cikgu tak guna buku teks".. alasan apakah?? thus, i got B3 for my BM in SPM (I deserved that la kan).. Still, I'm proud with it.. at least i passed with flying colours.. LOL..

My uncle did say something to me back in 1999, when i received my PMR result.. LOL.. He said, "Shame on you as a malay and muslim.. Your BM and Agama results should be far better than BI" .. huhu.. as i got B for my BM and Agama, and an A for my English Language..

well, i did counter back on his statement.. he shouldn't blame it on me, but the person who design the questions, til i found it easier than BM.. wattodo..

The Agama tu another story laa.. even i didn't get good results for Agama, it doesn't mean that aku ni jahil.. It just that I'm not good in memorizing the history of para2 Nabi and sahabat semua tu.. and that is also why, I can't be a lawyer.. LOL.. tiba-tiba pulak..

ENOUGH!! enough of mengenang kembali zaman sekolah..

Tengok... saya sudah melalut dengan jayanya.. Lari tajuk dah..

I went for the Teh Tarik Session with the TMG Vice Precident.. There were about 13 - 15 of us in that session from various of unit/department under TMG.. It is an informal session where they have makan-makan sambil borak-borak and updating one another.

Ekceli, aku tak tahu pun nak update apa about the session.. nothing much, but there is one thing that i like during the session, which when the VP mentioned that he wanted to change the level 54th environement, and he already got it started with one big Man U flag.. Urghhh!! go die you Man U! LOL.. Go Go the Blues!!!! hehe..

i was thinking too untuk tampal one CHELSEA flag, since there were numbers of CHELSEA fans too, tp, belum sempat nak cakap, he said "they are welcome to place any other football flags, but with 1 condition, the flag must not be bigger than ManU flag that have been placed".. ok.. what kind of condition is that.. sangat tidak adil itu Mr.VP..hahaha..

Siapa aku.....

2010-05-05T03:41:00.000-07:00

Aku bukanlah seorang yang pandai dalam mengarang kata-kata.. and aku bukanlah seorang yang bijak menyusun ayat-ayat puitis. Aku adalah aku.. seorang anak sulung yang essentially agak keras kepala, stubborn, day-dreamer, lazy, hot-tempered, loud, etc.. Tapi, siapa je yang tahu bahawa aku sebenarnya adalah seorang yang sensitive, kind-hearted, soft-spoken, shy, mudah mengalah, tak boleh tengok kesusahan orang lain, etc... even my parents can't figure it out. Pelik kan? I was kinda having this so-called split personality (not much).. I'm different at home, and different at the outside.. faham tak? tak? nevermind.. leave it..

aku tiba-tiba rasa nak berubah. This is it. To make some changes in me even though not too drastic. Baru aku sedar, all these while aku bukanlah aku. And it makes me pause for few second to actually figure out who am i previously.

Even me myself is unable to think about it. Perhaps i may need someone to tell me who i was before.

Technically, i'm not satisfied with myself. There are whole lots of things that i want to achive in life and i want to be totally a new me by end of this year. I can't stand to be like this anymore where sometimes i can't find my momentum in life.

I think god had already done something to me.. kalau tak, macamana aku boleh terfikir untuk ubah diri aku untuk menjadi aku yang sebenarnya.

Susah.?? memang.. this will be one new cabaran for me.. whether i can make it or not? lets leave it to god's will, and my discipline... Insyaallah..

My 5th yEAr aNniVerSaRy

2010-04-29T02:37:00.000-07:00

it's good to know that finally my relationship with my hubby is 5 years of age now. It's unbelievable to me eventhough people out there find it "so what?"... huhu..
*ada aku kisah kau kisah?" - that would be my answer to those who feels berbulu with my anniversary statement.

and next week, will be my 1st year or marriage anniversary pulak. So, next time, mabye we can celebrate 2 anniversaries in one shot. Save time and money of course... hehe..

Actually, up till now, whenever i give a look to my husband, i always ask him.. "knp saya kahwin dgn awak ye?" .. well.. it's not that i'm not happy to be married with him, it's just that, i couldn't believe that i'm actually a wife to a husband..haha.. perasan muda... haruslah..

because, dulu.. aku selalu la kn jugak berangan kan.. hehe.. selalu berangan macamana la rupa husband aku.. how would my marriage life' gonna be, how many kids i have, what kind of house im gonna stay in and bla..bla..bla..bla.. and here comes.. the reality.. hoho..

but still.. bersyukur jugaklah.. at least i can say that i'm still having a normal or usual life as newly wed couples.. duuhh..

huh.. i think i should make a move now.. its time to say sayonara to office.. and hello HOME!

special treatment for hubby?? heheh.. will see then.. xoxo

Life rolls like a bowling ball

2010-04-20T00:14:00.000-07:00

it has been 3 days i'm not touching my lappy to pretend rajin like i always did, and to update my blog. Had my bowling tournament with the PROPERD at the Flamingo on Saturday. Giving my all out lah i think, eventually, winning is not on my side as my team went as 1st team from behind kot. It was very frustrated by the way. But game is a game. Menang and kalah adat pertandingan.. chewahh.. *pretend to be positive pulak..padahal.. before the game formally end aku dh chow masuk kereta... crying*.. hey! come on.. worst personal record ok! i was like "OMG!! waddefak!!".. it was my 'su-wei' day la kot.. Yela.. morning we went to help out my cousin basuh rumah baru dia in Bandar Puteri. So, aku kena menyental sana sini, it may looks easy, but, lenguhnya, tuhan aje yang tahu.. we reached home around 5.45pm, and we only have 1 hour to rest before the game.. *shoite*

2010-04-15T01:26:00.000-07:00

Currently Listening to : Bossanova

Current mood : Gedix! LOL

I don't know why, but in the Gedix mood that is.. This week can be called as my most challenging week ever. With lots of things happened.. and if i really am a good novelist, i can make money you see!! unfortunately, i'm not, so, forget it lah.. Tried once to make my so-called novel, tapi, at the end of the day, aku entah kemana, novel pun entah ke mana..LOL.. ok that's not funny at all.. who cares after all kan?

Anyway, i think i had a good weak too eventhough sometimes it went down badly. Well, that's what we called as life. It goes up and down, and it fully depending on you on how to bring up the momentum together.. betul tak? But nevermind.. lets leave it behind.. i dont want to think about it anymore..

Well, i think i had good companion.. from Alia.. Mila.. my hubby, Zu.. Anis.. Kak Hannan and many more!! hey you guys!! you guys rawk!!!!!!!! Thank you for making my life meaningful.. gossips sharing, launghter, ideas, great weekend.. gosh.. those are TRAINTASTIC!! *akibat menonton katun keretapi yg cumel itu*...

anyway, before my merapuness takes place... ou know what, the clock strikes number 5 and 6 already.. so, its time for me to take my ass off from here.. hoho..

so, we continue merapu esok je la ye.. yeay!!! TGIF guys!!!

Dedicated To Those Who Act like LaLaLa L.A.L.A.T

2010-04-11T03:44:00.000-07:00

To those who thinks that he/she never see any lalat or even do not know how lalat looks like, so, this is how the lalat looks like.. I even drag the picture to be even bigger, so that you don't have to widely open up your pretty eyes to look at it.. (see.. how good i am to make your life easy..)

From the past few days, i've gone through some complicatons with few guys who like to make things complicated at the end.. But too bad because i guess, i really am pretty lazy to write about it now because all i can say is, aku tadak nafsu untuk recall balik story2 busuk ni... But all the things that i wanna do is, just to bagi nasihat to you guys.... and the advice is gonna sounds like this....

"there's is no valid reason for you to response on something that

is not directly dedicated to you and even there's got NOTHING to do with you.

Trying to be a defender to someone that so called to be the one who you care the most or perhaps your good friend, is not

the good steps taken as it may leads you to be seen as an IDIOT in other word..

If you're not invited to be in the situation,

the most brilliant thing for you to do is.....

S.T.A.Y .. A.W.A.Y

I believe you're not the pesky lalat right??

or even if you're is,

for the sake of your own pride,

you dont have to campur tangan in other people punya hal..

So, as said by the late MJ, remember to always think twice...."

The most long advice given by me dalam abad ini.. har..har..har..

i never write such that long....

.... haih... i think, i'd rather go and prepare my dinner than talking craps here... because, i think, to write something about someone who can be classify as TAK RETI BAHASA and TAK TAHU MALU is sangat buang masa and tenaga.. lalat....... biaselaaa...

2010-04-08T03:03:00.000-07:00

While the rest of my finger bows, the MIDDLE one stands tall, and THAT is for YOU!

yeah.. for you!! and you deserves that walaupun aku rasa ekceli you deserves MOREEE... Dah la poyo nak mamps.. siap bawak lalat tu.... haii.. coward... you're a coward man!! and yg sekor tu pulak, memang la dasar lalat muka tak malu.. out of the blue tiba-tiba muncul and menyemak dengan ayat yang macam bagus tu.. owh.. i forgot.. lalat kan... dia pedulik hape.. semua pun sambar ajeeee...

owh, now i know what to call those people yg ntah hape2 ni.. lalat... by taking considerations own lalat's attitude etc.. berbaloi-baloi......

Please la.. aku tahu lah kau tak puas hati dengan aku kan..kononnya aku ni "memfitnah".. ye la..mulut jahat senang... tapi kau jangan lupa laa.. kau tu pun sama tak reti bahasa.. Dah aku explain kat kau panjang lebar, tapi tak faham2 jugak.. Banggakan sangat dengan pemikiran sempit kau tu.. Adnan sempit pun tak macam kau.. Come on la.. kau nak suruh aku cakap bahasa apa baru kau nak faham?? owwwh... ye la... aku explain in malay language.. apa barang bahasa melayu kan.. kau layan english language aje kn... cm yg kat bawah ni.....

"Apa yg susah....

Example : Pada suatu hari ali dan abu berjalan-jalan....

kemudian ternampak tupai yg melompat-lompat....

sample jer....street to the point je lah......huh!

mana mahu larik.......semua org baca kat sini....

kesian YL aku....."

and....

"i'm no blame u coz u are good speaker....

but urs friend....Thanks....peace..."

hoho...banyak kali aku kena kaji the words written.. and aku tak tahu la kan, berapa lama dia nak karang ayat bombastic macam tu.. sampai orang pun tak faham. (orang terdekat dgn die faham la kot).. cakap ajela yang kau blame aku.. kan senang.. tak sampai sesaat pun nak fikir..huh..

"sample"???? "street"???? waddefak la kan... house guard kawasan perumahan aku pun tau nak bezakan between "simple" and "sample", and between "street" and "straight".. Tu la.. sekolah tinggi sangat.. sampai confuse.. Lu bikin malu der.. dah la kau bawak lalat masuk.. kau tak tahu ke der?? lalat membawa penyakit.. if tak, takdelah dia nk tulis macam ni

"lor...dah habih ker...baru nak join

untuk mengeruhkan suasana..........im too late....!!"

lu memang spesis bangkai la der.. kata "adult",,tapi, it clearly shown that you're not an adult enough. Sick people! Shut the fuck up la..

Nasib baik la pasangan kau tu lagi cerdik dari kau! permasalahan dah terungkai.. and aku pun dah explain sebjik-sebijik kat korang apa yang salah faham.. Tapi, kau over lebih la der.. ooo..yela.. nak tunjuk hero la kan depan girlfriend... Fuck off la!!

huh.. malas aku nak layan manusia otak sempit macam kau. Aku pergi layan berak lagi bagus la der! Tulis pasal kau buat aku rasa nak berak sebab kau memang mcm jamban!!

2010-04-05T07:52:00.000-07:00

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Im not trying to be cynical, just experienced it..

so, now, basically i want to write on what have happened to me since yesterday? today? day before yesterday? or should i say.... my BAD DAYS????

I was really really really upset with few peoples around me. Those who think its nothing got to do with you, fine, just keep your mouth shut and read! I just want to write it all out before i take my ass off from this place. Basically, it is about one or two people yang aku rasa macam "kau dah lebih laa..".. yes! that it is! you're just being toooooo much.

Ok, this happened basically few days ago, when this bitch came up to me and asking me on something which is not my priority at all to look on.. Hey come on!! all these while, kau punya nama is always in the loop, so??? what is the purpose of keeping your name in the loop??????? I thought it suppose to be her responsibility to get all those works done! and i'm here just to help them out whenever needed. If the task cant be completed due of me having my core task, she can't blame me up!! HELLO!!! can't you see???? my core tasks are that 2 client.. not that one ok!! I've been requested by the upper level to help you guys IF i have an extra time to do it... So pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... Glue up this statement in your brain! Plus, bear this in mind ya.. you and me are the same... so, jangan lah kau nak perasan yang kau tu kononnya somebody dengan aku ok!

Kalau kau terbukti memang kau bagus, there should be no problem for me to take your words, but come on.... look at yourself.. every single day i can hear comments and complaints about you. Kalau yang bagus, takpela jugak.. tapi... sumenye opposite.. So, what is that all about then?? kerja kau pun mcm taik, lagi nak bagi arahan kat orang? kau sapa???

Bear it out if you have done such a great job. Can you?????

Ahhhh...ye la.. no wonder you're like that.. i can see it now.. because you always have backups from your so-called "brothers".. ass%^*& laaa...

eeeeee... i don't know how can this kind of people pun ada.. dah la perasan... haih.. luckily you're nothing to me, or else, memang $%^&* aku kerjakan kau,,,,

BENCILAH!!!!!

Finally it ends

2010-04-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

Goodbye Sunday..and yeah..ahaa..ok.. hello Monday... Do you have to come that fast? Siyesl, i need more time to rest because my weekend was full. Saturday with Tahlil and doa selamat.. Sunday balik Subang pulak.. and now.. esok Monday dah...

why the government tak buat like, satu minggu kerja, then satu minggu cuti.. tak pun, those yang kerja 2 hari, dapat cuti 2 hari.. if 3 hari, cuti 3 hari.. LOL.. banyak cekadak..

ok la.. im going out now.. heading to bandar puteri.. tengok progress rumah yang tengah renovate, than nak pergi makan cheese naan and ayam tandoor... hell yum!!! daaa

tH3 dAy thaT w3 aR3 wAiTinG for tH3 mOsT

2010-04-02T04:06:00.000-07:00

Let's groovy bebeh! hell yeah.. HELLO WEEKEND! it's good that weekend is finally right in front of me. Hoho.. tekanan kau seminggu bekerja.. plus, lately ni work load agak heavy.. hah..rasakan.. what did you said when you were still so-called freshie?? "i quit to be a banker as their jobs are routine and i choose to be here because im seeking for some challenges in working" ... LOL.. so, take it.. this could be baru sikit kot.. and there will be MORE waiting for you ahead.. hohoho...

This time i don't think i can write longer (pernah ke tulis panjang2?) hehe.. because in few minutes, i'll be heading to rumah in laws.. tomorrow ada tahlil and some kenduri as they are going for Umrah next week.

When we talk about my in laws family, there will be few people yang akan bertandang ke my head.. my hubby's cousins basically.. cousin or cousin in law.. i don't know.. it could be anything..

I know that she dont like me since the very first time she saw me.. haha.. boleh tak?.. I don't know.. aku tak kenal dia at first, and dia pun tak kenal aku.. the good things of "these" person, dorang kutuk aku depan-depan (eventhough i cant hear).. but come on lah.. i can see your eyes...huh.. freak..

ok la.. will continue later.. dah bising laki aku ni.. tadi dia jugak yang sibuk main PS.. then, bebel kat aku pulak because online.. huh..

D.A.J.A.L

2010-04-01T21:27:00.001-07:00

From the past few days, i was always thinking of making some dajal to some people yang aku rasa memang i can make some fun on him or her.. hoho.. being sarcastic once in a while is not like as bad as you think..hehe.. Plus, if the person really is deserves to accpet my dajal-ness, so take it la kan... and yeah.. i did it to one person.. the person who is totally annoying to me.. hahaha..

will continue writing again soon la.. busy la pulak...(konon)

2010-03-25T03:00:00.000-07:00

It's raining heavily at the outside since an hour ago.. tengok the petir, teringat movie tornado/twister.. huhuh..

luckily am not in menara.. if not, lagi seram.. lol

2010-03-25T02:17:00.000-07:00

F.R.I.D.A.Y . . . . .

It's 5.21PM .. 9 more minutes to 5.30Pm and guys!! you may say so long to office!! huhu.. Goodbye Thursday and HOLLLLLLLLLAAA Friday!!!!!!!!!!
The best day ever, and yeah.. the most wanted one lah of course because the next day will be Saturday, where we can say "shut up" to alarm clock and of course to the people who purposely knock your door... lol

I have sooo many things for my weekend.. lets list it down then!

1. Bowling

2. Japanese food

3. Subway

errr... tadi rasanya macam byk sangat dalam kepala.. betul.. tak tipu.. lol

But seriously, to play bowling is the one that i really cant wait as i know, that baby is gonna be there!! who?? which baby?? look at the picture below....

she's sooooo adorable kan???.. her name is Nur Erriana Bellysya in full.. in short, as "sayang" by her parents.. huhu

huhu.. cant wait to have one.. soon?? hopefully...

talking about baby Bellysya, i heart the way she give us the flying kiss... awwwww~

so comel.. so adorable.. so cute..so manja and so everything!!

The parents should be very lucky to be given such a beautiful baby.. huhu.. wish i could have one like that.. hoho.. berangan...

but seriously.. i cant wait to have a baby...............

2010-03-25T01:56:00.000-07:00

Thanx to Nurul for introducing me to something like above! hahaha..

so not IT freak.. LOL.. ok, i admit that as i dont have soooo many time to think about it (cover.. cover..)..

so, tunggulah.. the new me will come.. LOL. ok what.. at least i have the willingness to learn eventhough from basic, and always admit for something that i dont know. What's wrong with that? Like my dad always told me, "ask if you dont know".. (cover lagi...)

Weekend is just around the corner people!!

can't wait!!

- haha.. of course.. when you can assure that your pocket is fully fill with money, weekend wiil be permanently glued in your head.. lol

well, it's just not that.. but we're planning to go for bowling this weekend with all those cool people in the whole wide world!! wheeeeee~

It's time to get to know one another.. and of course..after spending the whole week sitting in office looking at the monitor, it would be the best time to release the stress out from the body.. huhu..

i just cant wait!!!!! no i cant!!!!

DOWN....Down....down....i'm down....

2010-03-22T22:52:00.000-07:00

I'm down...

yes.. i'm down...

I always pretend that i'm smiling..

but deep down inside my heart, i'm crying...

no one knows...

i always wish for something...

but i never get it...

miss.. that is...

pain... yes..i always in pain....

and now.... i just want to sleep...

please go away from me...

please...

please...

please...

2010-03-15T02:06:00.000-07:00

Hari ini adalah hari yang sangat menyedihkan for me. Tipu la if i kata i dont feel anything right now, because, sad that is.. It controlling my emotion and i just couldn't get rid of it. A mixture of everything, and it turned up as one.. macam 1 Malaysia gitu..

But today seriously isn't really my day. I wish i could jump off from here, fly and just go to any places yang aku rasa boleh tenangkan hati aku yang memang tengah kacau!!

Hey! March is bulan jiwa kacau.... for me la.. and most of my friends pun cm setuju je dengan aku. Hoping for something in April.. something good perhaps..

well, i dont know whether i can talk about work or not here, but seriously, i do need to say it..
*omg..can you just shut ur phone off!! your song is damn %^&* annoying*
ok.. sambung.. haih.. OMG!!! damn serabut la throughout this week.. sangat semak! and of course, aku sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa.. lately ni macam sensitive, i can't accepts criticism towards me (eventhough it's for something good).. and banyak laaaaa..

what else to write?? seee.. nak tulis pun tiba-tiba pulak out of ideas.. tadi berlambak je..
takpelaa.. stop dulu.. daaa

Cinta Sempurna

2010-03-12T21:53:00.000-08:00

Aku manusia lemah

Selalu terjatuh

Berbeda aku darimu

Kau berdiri teguh..

Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan..

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hati

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu 'tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu..

darimu..

Bukan aku tak pernah

Mengerti dirimu

Ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan

Aku...

Hilangkan rasa itu

Akhirkan semua

Dan bila kau sedar

Aku hilang dari kewujudan...

3 in 1 - boleh x?

2010-03-12T08:44:00.000-08:00

urrghhh!!!!

sungguh tidak mempunyai banyak masa untuk meng'update'kan blog aku ni. But always trying my best la..

yesterday aku rasa nothing much la yang jadi.. nothing interesting to share about..

Today?? yeah.. maybe.. my family left Malaysia for Umrah this evening.. sangat sedih because tak dapat ikut. To do Umrah and Haji with hubby is one of my dream after marriage.. hehe.. wish we could fly there too.. unfortunately, with limited number of annual leave given by the company, dapat pegi airport tengok they all berangkat pun jadi laaaa... sedih gila ayat.. ayat org pasrah.. huhuhu

Tomorrow will come.. in fact, it does!! and it is 19 hours more to the so-called bowling tournament.. huhuhu.. after 9 years of not touching the ball, hope i still can make it la tomorrow.. aiyakk!! seram kauu...

ok la.. mata aku ngantuk.. tapi perut aku lapar.. still waiting for hubby to come home.. lambat la pulekkkkk... ish..

ok.. gtg.. while waiting, apa salahnya if aku lelapkan mata sekejap.. huhuhu... daaa..

-Acute Tonsillitis-

2010-03-07T22:14:00.000-08:00

I have less work today compared to the other day, but i cant say anything much jugak la.. sometimes, i thought i have no works, tp, after lunch je, there were like macam2 hal yang datang.. huhuhu..

i was about to go out dah tadi.. to get some fruits.. i kan nk diet.. then kena tunggu cik yaya pulak..

"nak tunjuk muka kat boss" katanye.. whatever la kn..

last month, i found out that aku dapat tonsil.. huhu.. the doctor siap buat drawing lagi kat aku since dia rasa cam aku nampak blur kn.. lol. she just said, the tonsil almost nk sentuh my anak tekak, and it can be very dangerous la as it can block your breathing. Memang pun...

ok la.. i did took the medicaton.. then afta that, since the painful was gone, aku dgn bangganya ingat, my tonsil pn gone la.. until one day, after i had 1 big bekas of keropok keping with hubby, tekak aku rasa pedih balik.. "shit la... it comes again"..
so, apa lag kan, Lourdes!!! here i come!!..

with the same doctor but different time, she said "i refer you to hospital Serdang ye for surgery".. and i was like "............"... (padan jugak muka aku sebenarnya.. teringin nk masuk hospital kan?? hah.. hamik kauuu)...

so, now, aku tgh berpantang laa.. no more ice cold.. no more spicy foods, no more oily foods (tapi skrg sedang menikmati nugget and sausage haha)

whatever la kan...

ok la.. gtg.. daaaa...

Bye KL, Hello KT

2010-02-11T18:41:00.000-08:00

I was having one kind of disease called "split personality" since i steped into a working life. Well, I don't think it sounds scary, but at that time, I realized that I need at least a day off for myself to balance up my life again. *like what I'm doing now.. blogging.. eventhough there are still pending works..but..c'mon.. give a break*

It begun with when hubby told me that the PROPERD is planning for a trip to Gambang Water Park in Pahang, but too bad, I'm not interested in water park thingy. So we've decided to go to Terengganu, kononnya boleh la i tunjukkan my school, my house and my late grandpa's house to my hubby since i used to spend my 7 years in Kuala Terengganu before we permenantly moved to KL *wink..wink*

<3>

Ok, we've started our journey around 7 in the morning, kononnya nak catch up those PROPERDians punya convoy, because before that, we stopped by kt my in laws house. Saje je.. menantu yang baik la katakan.. lol.. *geli*. If lambat gerak, nanti kena tinggal plak kn..and of course, tak sempat nak stop by kat my in laws house. Ok la.. cut the story short, we reached the Tol Gombak aroung 8.50 cmtu.. Amazingly, satu kereta pun takde kat sana. Me and hubby was like ?????? apakah??

Me: are we late? or dorg yang x sampai lg ni?

Hubby: ntah laaa...

Me: call la tanya...

Hubby: *dialing number* .. hello.. kt mane? hah, dh lepas dari tol Gombak? Semua dh gerak ke?..... *terputus*

Me: so, wats up??

Hubby: putus...kate dh lepas tol gombak.

Me: ..........

and because of nak kejar the convoy punya pasal, my husband was driving macam nak race kt F1 dh rasanye.. After about an hour of driving, then we saw one pelik green colour car which is also known as "keta kaler katak" among me and sisters kat depan. Yang paling kelakar, kereta hijau tu je satu2 nya yang ada and my hubby was like, where's the rest?

Oooooo...rupa2 nya, they all x gerak pn lagi from tol gombak. And owner kereta hijau tu is an army.. so, agak punctual, and those yg lambat, dia tinggal. Bahagia tak hidup dia? lol.

So ok la, only 2 cars headng to RnR Temerloh to join other convoy yg from Pahang. So, of course la, we took the great opportunity to isi perut jugak la.. We had gulai tempoyak ikan patin. All tme favourites man!! gosh.. i just couldn't say NO to something that i LIKE.. lol

taken somewhere at Sri Petaling. Nice sunrise view *love*

Ok la.. once other from KL dh sampai, we all gerak la from RnR Temerloh.. There were about 20 cars kot, or even more *lost count* heading to Gambang.. Except me and hubby la of course..

Actually there were sooooo many things to talk about.. tapi it seems that i'm very very the malas now.. so, lets allow the picture speaks ok.. hehehe

the convoy

my all time favourite! split banana *wondering, why is it split?*

its pulau kapas ye everyone.. tempat nostalgia LOL

The Felda Residence Hotel, Kuala Terengganu. Not so bad hotel after all.

my mom punya ofis lama back in Terengganu.. hehe

aha... yeap.. this house used to be my 1st house when i was in KT 16 years ago.. it looks much horror now. I mean.. really. The housing area itself looks very buruk, horror and bla..bla..bla..

yibba..yibba.. this is my late grandpa's house and still is.. the different is, he's no longer belongs to be in this world with us.. but lets the memoirs of him plays around..

ahaks..finally.. this is my house guys!!.. its a double storey house, but i dont know why, nampak bahagian atas je, that is used to be my parents room.. LOL

this mosque satu masa dulu was sangat cantik and big.. but now, only nampak the menara.. tenggelam with the development.. but its still functioning well ok..hehe

this is the reason why im choosing Terengganu to be my weekend getaway destination with hubby.. as i know, im leaving behind so many kinds of memories in Terengganu.

the view from the hotel car park. I heart this so much. Very pantai timur view..

hubby is going insane.. lol

Actually, 7 years in Terengganu giving me such beautiful memories and hope that the memories will be always in my heart..never fade...

sooner or later, will come back here again of course.. it is just a matter of time...

so long Terengganu...

A Mixture of Everythng.

2010-02-01T23:13:00.000-08:00

well, i think it begun with an email that i received few days ago. The email that was sent by one makhluk yg mcm $%^& yang suddenly illegally entered into my life *eventhough you are married to my cousin, it doesnt mean that i can declare you as my so called cousininlaw*

I'm not going to do a story telling here.. it just that if i have a chance to speak up right on his face, i would say that "you're nuthing to me so stay away from my life..you stupid big black ugly and smells like rubbish #$%&*^" ~ *phewww*

*****

okay..okay.. enuf of carut-ing to him.. GTH la kan... hoho.. i would be please if he read this so that he would know how much i hate him! if ada perkataan yg lagi dasat dari 'hate', haa, mmg perkataan tu la yg akan aku guna.. Unfortunately, i cant think of any.. "hate" would be fine to me i guess.

*arghhh!! i just couldnt take him out from my mind!! no wonder la gelap je otak aku ni.. segelap kulitnya yg macam bontot kuali tu.. huh*

Sorry la *****, he's the one who can be blame..not me.. and please... remind him of not to go far beyond his limit.. remember.. when i say it, i mean it.

*****

ok.. throw him away now.. lets begin with other topic.. *aaaaaaaaaaa...* cant think of any la pulok *menggunakan gaya bahasa ala...sape tu.. lupa plak nama dia.. the one yg dalam iklan lasindah cafe tu.. that old man~LOL*

haih.. OMG..OMG.. otak kau tepu sekarang ni.

this morning i thought i had those simptoms that can lead me to bad fever *best jugak dpt demam ni* .. tp after lunch, mcm ok la pulak.. buy my throat still in pain ok.. kahak pn still ade.. amazingly, xde la plak i batuk ke, flu ke.. maintain je *punahla harapan utk mendapat sekeping MC*

owh..saya sgt stress now!! i really am.. for the first time ever, i'm counting the numbers..LOL.. sgt desperate nk balik rumah.. i just couldnt stand anymore to sit here in my office, plus aku rasa macam nk demam la.. i'm having all the simptoms now, but it seems that the virus is yet to hit my body.. please... aku nak demam.. *boleh tak?*

err.. i think i should make a move now.. i wanna go home on time.. *konon ajela kot*

my head is heavy.. my throat is in pain.. lack of water? perhaps... *sigh*

owh..btw.. now i know the name of that old man yg the one in Lasindah cafe punya iklan tu... its M.Rajoli.. LOL... sanggup....

Blurness way back in matrix

2010-01-12T20:26:00.000-08:00

Currently listening to : Voice of the trainer

Current location : Emerald room, Level 9, TM Annexe 2.

Current mode : *sick*

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~

huweee.. im feeling sick now.. bukan demam.. not even a flu.. but sick of the training.. LOL..

to many to learn laaa~

plus, i think i haven't stop from attending training since last week.. even the pak guard at the lobby pun mcm dah recognize muka aku yang chantek ni.. LOL

Gosh.. i can be say as still new in this thingy.. so a little bit lost when it comes to those jargon.. huhu.. malatop kapla i nak catch up. But bak kata Gloria Gaynor (ambik semangat sikit), i will survive!!!! - bluerrghhh...

Luncheon time.. but i dont feels like eating - konon nak diet. But konon ajela.. not more than that.

Gosh.. when will all these things end?? i just couldnt take it anymore. Enough of training bagai. Yang aku pelik, senior-senior kat office aku takde pun terhegeh-hegeh nak attend the training ni?? ni yang buat aku rasa menggelegak jugakla... ke aku aje yang baik hati datang the training ni? ish.. memang tak leh blah!

OMG!! OMG!! OMG!! aku nak tidor.. guess what, actually kan, the training ni mula semalam (12 Jan).. tapi aku dengan bangganya skip the session.. hehe.. bosan la.. asyik training je.. tapi satu ape pun tak masuk.. lagi cerdikkan?

ok la..GTG..byk keje ni.. nak coulour-colourful pun x sempat... daaaa

This is the fact.. eventhough they can see my eyes are wide open, the reality is, my brain is completely shut down! (for today ajela..). Man..i need holiday~

Bukit Puchong 2 - Puchong Tekali - Bandar Mahkota Cheras - Genting - Pyramid - Sungkai - Seri Manjung

2010-01-10T18:10:00.000-08:00

Currently Listening to : Kenangan Terindah by the Sampson.

Haih.. i tersuddenly sentimental sket today.. and mula lah rasa macam nak flash back story-story lama.. especiall when i look back kat gambar-gambar taken last year.. chewah.. hahaha.. kononnya memori tahun lepas la.. (macam memori daun pisang pulak)...

anyway, banyak gak la happened during December last year.. Nothing interesting, biase2 aje dong.. Buka tirai December dengan bortday my mom.. unfortunately, i dont have any pic of it, plus aku jugak masih hutang birthday gift dengan mak aku.. LOL

Then, my cousin dapat baby on the 12th. She was born at KPMC Puchong.. The nearest private hospital in Puchong kot rasanya.. my cousin's wife ni have been admitted since pukul 11am on the 12th tu..and the doctor at first suspected that she'll deliver her baby around 8pm camtu.. so, me and husband (yang sepatutnya teman my cousin kat hospital) ni went out la cari makan.. lapar kot.. dah la tak sempat makan.. Then, i suggested my hubby pegi makan kat IOI Mall tu..kononnya "boleh cari prezzie for the new born" .. Ok la, after pusing-pusing the whole mall, suddenly my mom call and ckp my cousin dh bersalin.. and that time baru pukul 6.. hailerr.. kocoh-kocoh ler we all cepat2 nak sampai KPMC.. apala punya doctor..cakap jam 8..skali jam 6 daaaa...

Nur'Ain Darwisha Bt Mohd Adnan

12 Demeber 2009

Was talking to hubby jugak.. my kakak ipar pun masa tu tengah tunggu time untuk deliver her baby jugak.. hahahaha... ok la.. 5 days later, on 17th of December, which is a day after mine, the baby was born in KPMC Kajang (KPMC lagi...)..

Nurul Zahirah Binti Masrizal

17 December 2009

haih..wat else? owh.. my birthday.. takde yang gempak-gempak jugak.. just makan-makan aje kat Tony Roma's Sunway. Punya lah susah nak decide where to makan.. What to do, banyak sangat dalam kepala apa yang nak di makan (maklumla...)..LOL.. ok la.. suddenly jugak macam out of ideas.. adoi.. nvm..let the pic speaks.. hahaha

Tony Roma's, Sunway Pyramid

8.30PM

owh..lazatnya.. my strawberry bla..bla..bla.. and husband' pineapple bla..bla..bla.. LOL.. cant really remember the name of those drinks.

Ribs!! Terbaek!

haih.. those pic.. memang reminds me of those ribs... syedap!!!!!

ok la.. next!!!!!! to Seri Manjung, Perak.. the wedding of a friend of mine, Diana a.k.a DD..

dah macam puteri keratong dah.. cantik....tapi yang kelakarnya, we got lost at first.. agak tunggang langgang la the map in the invitation card..huhuhu..but itu adalah normal la for most of the wedding card.. x sah if the map tak tunggang langgang..lol.. ok la, we managed to sampi kat seri manjung dalam pukul 3 kot.. hahaha.. a bit late.. x sempat nak tengok the pengantin bersanding and all.. takde rezeki la tu kan.. Tapi ok la.. puas hati jugak coz dapat tengok didi in her wedding dress.. and the food pun delicious jugak.. i like the rendang daging by the way.. well.. i dont think it is rendang daging.. ntah la.. as long as delicious, ok la kan.. lol

After that, before balik KL, nak la jugak ronda-ronda tengok Seri Manjung ada apa... then we went to Teluk Batik.. Saja nak tengok pantai.,.and at first perasan nak makan kopok sambil jalan-jalan tepi pantai with hubby, and buat some sand arts ke.. kira macam lagu anita sarawak and late sudirman la.. bercanda di pasiran pantai..kita bersama memadu asmara.... lalalalaal.. lol..

tapi, those angan-angan tak jadi because, the teluk batik is not as indah as what i've imagined.. lol.. apala hajar ni..

however, as a tempat riadah family memang tadak hal la.. ok je.,., meriah.. bagi aku je tak best.. LOL

Diana and Hail

19 December 2009, Seri Manjung, Perak.

next in December was the graduation of FSTEP Batch 2 at Lanai Kijang, Bank Negara Malaysia. Ok la.. nothing special sangat pun.. Just the convocation itself, and meeting friends, tu ajela.. but, maybe boleh bagi compliments jugak to the management, because they all berjaya make sure the programme runs smoothly. Almost perfect la.. Well Done!

Multipurpose Hall, Lanai Kijang,

Bank Negara Malaysia.

23 December 2009

Next!! yeah! Genting bebeh!! (macam tak pernah pergi Genting je).. But Ok la..pergi pun bawak my siblings - birthday present they all yang aku kumpul sekali, jadi 1.. lol.. 3 in 1. Ok what.. takkan aku nak pergi Genting every month kot kan.. mentang-mentang husband working with Genting company. LOL.. but that time rasanya mcm wrong timimg jugakla, because masa tu the kabus memang gila-gila punya tebal.. when we were on our cable car to the peak, 2 kali jugakla the cable car stopped in the middle of the fog, and berayun ayun kat atas tu. LOL.. Tapi, tu semua experience la.. (wah! experience kunun, kalau jatuh, gadai nyawa jugak..huhu)..

Masa nak balik pun sama.. we were stucked kat sana for more than 2 hours.. sebabnya, the cable car was closed due to the cuaca yang tidak baik. So, the management pun decided tu turunkan all the people by using shuttle bus. Gila???!!!! ingat kat atas sana ade 10 orang aje ke?? beribu-ribu weh!!!.. nasib baik jugakla, after beratur about 2 hours, hubby managed to get a taxi. He charged us RM50 from the peak to the skyway because we parked our car kat sana. Haih, next time rasanya, if nak pergi Genting lagi, maybe bawak kereta sampai atas la kot. serik.. huhuhu..

Tapi ok la.. ALhamdulillah we all reached home takdela lambat sangat. About 10.30PM like that.. wondering those yang waiting for the free shuttle, pukul berapa la baru they dapat turun ye? huhuhu *insaf sekejap*

to the peak!!!

space shot
angah, adik and hubby
hubby yang kononnya nak cabar his gayat-ness..LOL

err.. are you ok over there sayang <3 ??

The Spinner

Angan, Acik and Adik.

dunno how many time they go on spinner.

raining break~

angah, acik, adik.

me and my bubble grape milk tea~

i <3 this so much!!

The Flying Coaster!!

LOL~ this is fun!!

haha.. that's all about Genting.. If kena pada masa, quite enjoyable jugak Genting ni.. kira ok la kan.. Genting is a substitute for Disneyland, Movie world ke, ape world lagi macam kat Gold Coast tu.. 6 Flags ke.. eyh, 6 Flags ke? blasah... hahaha
Our next target is to Universal Studio in Singapore pulak.. Hubby said, much better than the one in US.. because the Universal Studio in Singapore is developed dari kekurangan Universal Studio in US.. True or not, just wait and see.. kit apergi je dulu..hik..hik..hik..

ok..last but not least, on the 26th of December, my uncle got married to a young lady aged 23 year old (if im not mistaken).. well..dah jodoh.. dapat ayam baru.. hehehehe... doakan yang terbaik ajela..amin..

Ayah mad and errr... cik Aishah?~ bolehla..

Sungkai, Perak.

2010 resolution(s)???

2010-01-07T19:53:00.000-08:00

Its the 8th day of 2010, and now only i have at least few minutes to think about my 2010 resolution (s), which i think that i don't have any..LOL.. - padahal, aku dah started to get bored already in this training room.

plus, i donn't want to get frustrated when i can't achieve everything (non actually - LOL) that i've been aimed, and i think it should be a "good" reason for me to not having any resolutions..

V(=n_n=)V

and as far as i know, i NEVER have any resolution lah when it comes to new year.. huhu.. because for me, when you wish to do something or when there's something come up in your mind, it doesn't mean that you have to wait for new year to come and make it as your new year target lah kononnye.. dawh...

But this year rasanye macam nk try out something new..hehe.. to have few so called belated new year resolutions (very yo-yo-oo)

so, i think listed below would be something that i've been wanting lah actually from the past few years, and also some new wants jugaklah kot (macam2 aku ni)..

1. 1st and going to be forever 1st, i want to be K.U.R.U.S lah.. hell yeah! i can say that i put on my weight everyday tau, eventhough i decided to skip my meal. Kononnya dengan penuh harapan i can manage to reduce my weight la by skipping my meal. But, sengih je la kan.. Ha, yesterday i saw this The biggest Loser tips.. they wrote on the TV screen, "skipping your meals is not the right way in loosing weight as our body need food to increase the metabolism to burn the fat" .. hmmm.. no wonder la im getting bigger and bigger...

2. Get to be permanent quick!!.

yeah!! TM requires you to be in probation/contract for 1 Y.E.A.R ok.. which i think it might takes you to feel like 1000 years to reach a year.. haha.. faham tak? nvm..

3. This one rasanya macam malu jugak nak tulis, but, since mcm dah semangat nak list down the resolution, so, better proceed je la kan..
hah, this time, i think... heheeh.. (malu lar..).. ok..ok.. (mengada la hajar ni).. ok.. this year, with god's willing, i want to have a kid.. my age pn dah 25 years and 23 days (still tak nak ngaku 26 - haha).. and i guess, my parents pun dh kebulur sangat nak cucu - sampai my birthday wish pun my mom wrote "moga cepat bagi kami cucu" .. owh, im touched.... padahal, stress je.. tengah trying hard la dengan husband ni.. tapi yela.. i thought, making kids ni senang.. but actually, it's not easy as what you think la. Take considerations on few things lah basically. If both of you (meaning you and hubby) is not working, so, shouldn't be a problem la the make out every night pun.. but, if both are working, aku rasa, jam 10 dah sangap dah.. and you'll high value your sleeping time. So, hari yang boleh dikatakan betul2 free, weekend aje lah.. itu pun, need to take consideration on your waktu subur ke, waktu tak subur ke and bla..bla..bla.. haaaa...

If you're really lucky enough, then you dapat la.. if not, what else we can say kan?

Donia..donia... orang yang susah dapat anak, bukan main desperate lagi nak anak... tp, those yang have no problem at all to have kids, selamba je main buang2 anak la.. abortion la.. haih.. ok.. merapu already..

wish that this little one is mine!!

4. I want to get a new car.. hehehe.. seriously, now i can say that i'm still searching for the right car to choose, eventhough me and hubby already found out the right car to buy.. well, the one tha have been chosen pun bukanlah a luxury car. Well, it just a car that is suitable for long haul.. not so expensive, and not so cheap too, but, the car's specification really had touched my heart..wah gitu.. well.. it's just a car that is simple and smart, enough said.. haha

5. I want to get myself a Blackberry phone! haha.. people might say "lambat la minah ni, orang dah guna lama dah" or, maybe "outdated la pempuan ni", but i tell you what.. ada aku kesah??? haha.. at first i just want to stick on what i have, but finally, after been working here in TM, i realize that a Blacberry phone is important so that i can retrieve my email whenever where i am.. well, i want to get that phone, for job purpose.. bukan untuk bergaya semata-mata ye encik2 and puan2.. like most of young executive la kononnye.. beli phone mahal2 bagai nak rak, but what is the purpose of it? none.. paling2 pun bukak FB..hahha...bluerkk.. show off... konon nak tunjuk dia banyak duit, and up to date and bla..bla..bla.. puh-lease..........

Hmmmm... what else?? thinking..thinking.. *perah otak session*..

well, i think itu ajela kot so far yang ada dalam my head *wink..wink..*.. 5 ni pun belum tentu tercapai, inikan lagi 10 or 20 resolutions?? huhuhu.. wait for next year la pulak kot.. hahaha

ok la.. rasa macam nak lelap mata sekejap before the training continues.. adeehh.. when it will end la!!

2010-01-07T17:43:00.000-08:00

*yawn*

It's freaking boring here in this Peridot room. Required to attend the GEMS Training Programme in TM Annexe 2, with only 6 people in this room? and it supposed to be like 21 people! Where are the rest?? - on the way.
If we look back during school time (or at least during our college time), punctuality is the MOST important of all. *sigh*

Gosh.. I just couldn't stop from yawning, plus it's raining out there.. and of course, i can only think of my bed right now - daahhh...

*looking at my laptop bag*
I'm supposedly to leave my bag in the car, since im not going to use it today (due to the training course that i'm currently attending. But unfortunately, as advised by one of my office mate, its not safe for me to leave my laptop in the car, eventhough in Menara TM compound (except their basement parking). Haih, i thought, the parking management should take care all the cars eventhough segala berlaku adalah bukan tanggungjawab kami, but atas dasar kemanusiaan, why not kan.. tolong jaga.. bukannya orang lain.. staff jugak..
Nak parking kat basement??? huhuhu.. you may get the parking if you reach menara TM at 7 or 7.30am in the morning.. or else, you may passing by only lah..

haih, ok.. time to focus now... should i feel bored again, feel free to write craps in this.. LOL

2009-12-28T00:15:00.000-08:00

*mode geram*

ooo..yes!! am pretty upset with TM Point Cyberjaya today, especially the guy yang called me up tu la.. luckily you're not in front of me la man.. or else, free-free je dapat amukan puaka dari aku (maklumla.. sejak kahwin mak makin garang nyah)..

The story macam ni la.. i overlooked my streamyx bill, so, ade the month tu tak bayar, jadi outstanding la kan.. ok, i understand that. So, i found the bill, and pagi-pagi lagi datang office, i terus pegi bayar la the bill kat menara TM punya TM point ni. Alaaa..sebulan je pun outstandingnya.. bukan setahun...

Then, around 12pm camtu, the guy called me la.. and asked, who is Mr.Marzuki Abdullah and i was like ???? that's my apak and apa kena mengena dengan aku??.. eyh, susahla nak explain like this, to make it easier, below is the conversation between me and Mr.T tu la ye..

Me : Hello??

Mr.T : Hello, saya dari TM Cyberjaya, boleh saya tahu siapa En.Marzuki Abdullah? (without telling his name)

Me : ??? (amboi mamat ni, CSI ke?) En.Marzuki? Ayah saya la.. kenapa??

Mr.T : Ok, saya nak bagitahu, bill telefon ada outstanding of RM78.11, dan sila buat pembayaran secepat mungkin ye.

Me : ???? what do you mean outstanding? saya dah settlekan semua bill pagi tadi.

Mr.T : Dah settlekan? berapa awak bayar?

Me : RM145.11 la.. yang tertunggak RM78.11 and current charge.

Mr.T : ok.. kat mana bayar tu?

Me : ??? (u can retrieve all the info pe?) Menara TM.

Mr.T : Oooo..ye..ye..ok.. terima kasih.

Me : ???? (what the f%&k!)

Memang la if baca from the conversation apala sangat kan.. tapi, on the customer side, i agak bengang jugak. Yela.. you as a customer service people, nak tanya customer, ask in a proper way la.. gaya bahasa tu kasi lawa sikit la..

and another thing, setiap customer service people, they are able to retrieve all customer's info from their system.. from A - Z.. so, there is no single reason why you have to call up the customer just because to ask whether do they have paid? how much they pay? where and when and etc. Everything is on your fingertips and that's why i sangat tak boleh terima kenapa the guy kena call me up!

Furthermore, before you nak call the customer, you kena check dulu the account.. bukan call dulu then baru terhegeh-hegeh nak check account. Huh..bodoh ke bangang??

haih.. donia..donia..

So, at the end of the day, tak pasal-pasal the guy dapat nama timangan from me, which is Mr.T.. as in MR.TAIK!!!

whoaaa... i'm in office actually right now.. and i have about 40 minutes to go before i can call it a day. But, i can see that my tanduk setan dah keluar agak tinggi jugak.. so, i rasa i nak blah sekarang jugak. Hopefully tak kantoi with my apak la.. ngeh..ngeh..ngeh.. no way la kan.. i'm in menara TM.. my apak is in Menara Annexe 1.. ala.. located next to Menara TM je pun (macam jauh je cakap..huhuhu) .. But at least the probability of terserempak with him is very low la kan.. but next year, my apak punya department will permenantly move back to level 9 menara TM, so, rasanya, not so high risk jugak, medium la maybe.. because, my office is in level 54.. and he's going to be in level 9, so, definitely we are using different lift la.. heheheheh... i loike..

eyh..ok la.. i got to go now.. nak balik la... bosan.. daaaa...

to its end..

2009-12-03T00:27:00.000-08:00

Today is 3rd of December in the year of 2009. Can’t believe that the year of 2009 is almost to its end and 2010 is on the way to rise and shine up, and it will be the beginning of my so-called new life. Is that my new ‘azam’ for next year?. It could be possible thus I really am seriously looking forward to change my life to the better.

I just had started my career as an Assistant Manager Business Operation 4, Global Alliance with TM Global on the 1st of December 2009, which falls exactly on my mother’s birthday. And I believe that it could be the priceless gift for my awesome mother. I’m definitely grateful to god for giving me the chance of making my parents are proud of me which we might not getting the chance all the time because it’s not easy to make people happy. For now on, I’m hoping for something good in future. Success in career, to have kids and happy family, to be a good Muslim and to balance myself, especially when it comes to religious part. I think I should make a move now. I have to move up to another step in order to makes my life fully blessed by God.

hmmm... what else to talk about? I'm currently doing nothing in my office as my manager is somewhere in Cyberjaya right now. Meeting the client. And tomorrow i'll be in Menara TM for the whole day. Totally running out of ideas what will be next tomorrow. Hopefully there's something for me to learn. At least i can have a iew of my job responsibilities and able to understand every single things that have been raised up during the meeting. If tak, melopong je.. hehe..

Anyway, another 30 minutes to go, and as i cna see outside, its going to rain in any minutes now. Luckily i have my umbrella with me. Yeah.. going to walk to my car all over from the Plaza VADS carrying 2 laptop!! hah! they should inform me earlier about giving me the laptop so that will not bring my own! and now see what happen???!!! senget my bahu!!

think i got to go now. Will be contibue soon.

Those Good Old Days

2009-11-03T18:24:00.000-08:00

Name : Siti Hajar Binti Marzuki

Age : 24 going to 25

DOB : 16 December 1984

POB : Pasir Puteh, Kelantan

Marital Status : Married

Uni : BA (HONS) International Business, University of East London.

Diploma in Business Studies, Universiti Teknologi Mara.

High school (s) : Sek Men Keb Seafield (Form 6 - 2 weeks only)

Sek Men Keb Subang Utama (1997 - 2001)

Primary School (s) : Sek Ren SS19 ('96)

why did i higlighted the primary school (s) part? because, whenever people ask me regarding my primary school, SS19 will be the one that came out from my mouth. But i think i almost forgot that i actually have another school, where i've spent almost 70% of my primary time in that place, which is the Sek Ren Sultan Sulaiman 1, Kuala Terengganu.

Recently i found one of my x-schoolmate in SS1.. He's not only my x-schoolmate, but also used to be my classmate and neighbour back in Kuala Terengganu about 14 years ago. What a miracle actually.. Haha yela.. i didn't expect to jumpa balik those yang SS1-ians.. from his page if found this what so-called as "xssone" group, belongs to batch 91-96, which is my batch la.. amazing.. hahaha..

Glad that i still can remember few of them.. it is just that, they aren't remember me.. Maybe i tak habiskan most of my primary years in SS1, whereby they all membesar bersama-sama.. perhaps.. anyway, i really am hoping that i can find more friends from SS1, like few of them who i still can remember.. like Nur Sahara.. Munirah.. lagi siapa ye? owh.. Nina.. and ramai lagi.. unable to recall the name..

Talking about Munirah.. i takdela rapat sangat dengan die.. but, the reason why i still can remember her name, Munirah was known as a girl who is very quiet.. we hardly can hear she speak.. full of gold in her mouth..haha.. i dont know.. but that is Munirah.. cikgu selalu marah dia because whenever the teacher ask her to read from the book, no one can hear her voice.. in fact, no one knows whether does she really read or miming??? only she and god knows.. Anyway, been thinking.. how is she now.. is she is still like before?? quiet.. lone ranger.. really hope to see her..

Whatever it is, the Sultan Sulaiman 1 memories will be always perfectly glued in my mind... how can i just forget the place where i got my first lesson in facing the real world.. one fine day, i'll pay a visit to the school..

May Allah Bless

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W.E.E.K.E.N.D

2009-10-24T03:07:00.000-07:00

Weekend at home..

Nothing much.. my in laws are here to spend their weekend, which is ok la kn..

anyway, going out for awhile.. toodles!!

DULL

2009-10-10T03:52:00.000-07:00

Gosh! im so not in the mood today for blogging. LAZY is the perfect words to me as i cant think of any juicy stories to share. My brain is totally blank and.... yeah... im so sleepy..

What a bored saturday...

urghhhh.. i need something interesting!!! PLEASE!!!!!

BACK!!!

2009-10-04T09:06:00.000-07:00

Hey!!

i'm back again.. after about 2 weeks. I really am enjoying my hols.. Balik kampung to celebrate raya, went to Hong kong for Honeymoon+Family holidays. Splendid hols ever!! Eventhough this year punya Raya was celebrated dgn penuh kesederhanaan, but i can feel the diffenrence still..

Anyway, i'm not looking forward to continue writing right now, as it's already late at night. In a simple word, time to tido la.. C;

Perhaps will continue writing tomorrow, once i get all my works done appropriately.. Till then, see ya!

May Allah Bless

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2009-09-13T19:55:00.000-07:00

ho-yeah!! i ingored my blog from i think almost a week and i think i should update it now before im gonna leave it untouch for another week.. hah.. ok-ok.. before my merapuness takes place (and i think its already does), aku sendiri pun tak tahu nak tulis ape. LOL

Last night rasanya macam banyak sangat yang nak story in here.. but now macam dh .. B.L.A.N.K ~

owh .. i was thinking 'bout the camera.. haha.. (ok-ok..i got it). well, i think am gonna get myself one camera where i can keep it safely in my handbag (bukan gantung on my neck ye tuan2 and puan2). Like my husband's camera..

aha.. this is his craziness towards his DSLR camera.. no matter where and when, during what and what.. the camera dh jadi his 3rd wife kot.. 1st is me, second is his car, 3rd is his camera.. oo.. and 1 still kosong la if camtu.. haha

this pic was taken when we had our dinner kat Danga Bay.. Buka puasa of course and that day we all macam kebulur gilak!! LOL

Yela.. we drove all the way from KL to my hubby's workplace. We got lost before that.. How i hate JB yaw! (sorry JB-ians)

But at the end, we managed to find the place. It was like behind the Pelangi ape ntah.. it wasnt the Pelangi Mall.. I dont know..

Then, lepas he done with his work, we left JB to Kulai pulak. By using the directions printed by google maps pun we all sesat jugak. Ish.. menyampah dh dengan google maps ni. Ok la, finally we found the place la.. but then my hubby tak boleh nak continue buat kerja la because the clock strikes 5pm already. Kira time to go home la.. then we chose to cari hotel terdekat la.. But seriously.. i hate JB and Kulai so much.. the town memang terkulai betul la.. signboard hotel memang banyak, TETAPI ...................... hotel yg kitorg jumpa mostly macam hidup segan, mati anytime.. LOL

ok la.. to make it short, we found one small hotel kat Danga Bay tu la.. Named as Kozi Hotel. Maybe new budget hotel kot.. kot je la.. the price pun kira ok.. kira RM100 per night.. Tapi.. the room memang unexpected la.. seriously.. I imagine, since hotel tu kira hotel murah, so, i bayangkan the room pun kira..cm tu la kan.. faham2 la.. but..wallaaa!!! we went inside, we both like terpegun gila.. Room was small.. but not bad.. modern living type of room, with queen size bed, drink set, hair dryer, and yang paling buat me terkejut, they have a new Toshiba Regza slim TV tu.. *whoaa*.. for a budget hotel?? memeng unexpected habis la..

huhu.. eyh, time for me to plan apa yang nak masak la.. me need to go out kejap. Cari ikan.. LOL.. toodles!!

May Allah Bless

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2009-09-09T06:04:00.000-07:00

I just got back from Johor.

Had a good trip i guess eventhough it was just a really short one. As long as i do it with my hubby, everything is F.U.N ♥ ♥ ♥

Think my head really cant think of any words right now. Eyes only can see BED .. Head only sees BED .. Mind only thinks BED .. awhh.. i truly need my BED ..

Guess, will drop something here tomorrow..

till then~ toodles!!

May Allah Bless

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Ragam Manusia

2009-09-03T00:44:00.000-07:00

Take a look around you.. especially those people who you think that you know them really well. Do you really know them? or know them for the sake of knowing them? I've been keeping this for a long time already, it's just that i do not know how to spill it in a good manner. Let it sounds like generally.. not specifically point it to anyone. People' understanding might be different from us.. kot-kot ada yang terperasan lebih, nanti tak pasal-pasal konon emotional tak bertempat pulak kan...

i did observed few peoples around me (closest one). It's about friendship of course. To have a really good, caring, and honest friend is not easy. Sometime we feels like we already have one (or more), but do we really know our friend? Friends can be anything, and there were few that i've been found out.. but this one is my personal punya rasa laa..

1. claims that he/she is your good friend, but when you really are in need of her positive vibes, he/she's not there.

he/she might be there, but you get nothing from him/her.

2. Been together for ages, but you're the one yang jadi kuli batak dia or like lembu kena cucuk hidung. Ada jugak yang macamni, and the person yang konon our best friend tu, just nak take advantage on our kebaikan. Pun ada jugak...

3. Chipsmore friend. Macam chipsmore la.. Sekejap ada, sekejap takde ... bila susah, baru nak terhegeh-hegeh cari kita.. bila senang, you wont hear anything from him/her.. not even one sms.

4. Kawan yang konon really nice in front of us.. behind us??? talking craps about you? Memang dasar bontot masam la kan..

Haih.. friends can be anything folks.. Ada yang baik dengan kita, but with others, he/she's not.. and it can be otherwise.

I did come across one situation in friendship thingy, where this person can be said as too obsessed with her friend which i can describe her friend as someone who is just nak take advantage atas kebaikan this person. I mean.. really.. this person sampai sanggup put her family away just because of her friend.. it's crazy ok.. well, im glad that they now been seperated.. this girl really make a mess to the family with her "rubbish" stories.. dia rasa orang percaya dia kot.. but actually, silap.. the family just couldnt accept her anymore in life and cant accept her anymore to be their daughter's friend.

Just think ok, a true friend should always make each other happy. But this lady, yang konon nya a good friend (topeng je) boleh marah her friend sebab lebihkan family dari dia.. anyway.. GILA KA???? siapalah kita nak orang lebihkan dari keluarga orang tu sendiri.. This crazy woman maybe bukan datang dari bumi kot? entahlaa..

Dear Allah, kurniakanlah daku sahabat-sahabat sejati yang boleh kujadikan teman di masa senang dan susah. Amin~

May Allah Bless

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ABC hunting ... Story hunting

2009-09-02T21:50:00.000-07:00

Last night i was craving for the Air Batu Campur and memang macam preggers dah~ LOL. Macam dah lama sangat tak makan ABC, especially the one with different colours of syrup on the ice with lots of sweet corns, jellies, peanuts and the most important --> the ice cream.. Owh~ that's really fascinates me entirely. Rasa macam nak peluk the ABC bowl tu to avoid sudu-sudu haram yang nak tumpang dua kaki? GO AWAY!!!!! LOL

Was planned with my hubby to go for ABC around 8.30pm, unfortunately, i was like giving my full attention on the TV, and hubby with his FarmVille thingy, until the clock went to 9.30pm, we still couldn't make any decision on where to go. Plus, i have this thought in my mind

'adeke orang jual ABC malam2? kedai mana still bukak?'

We totally have no idea on that, plus, previously pun, we've never gone for any ABC hunting at night. (anyway, before kahwin la.. after kahwin pun never jugak~hehe)

ok la.. with maria's help, finally we went for Kassa Corner at Putra heights. Not so far from my place. The food were good though. We ordered Nasi goreng belacan thai, Udang goreng celup tepung, seafood tomyam and of course ........... ABC. I was expecting the ABC should be how i wanted it to be, and unfortunately, it just a normal ABC like kampung area (well, the ABC is still yummy). So, konon-konon to be positive, i told my husband

'ok la utk hilangkan ngidam sementara waktu'

this is how the ABC that im craving for :C

Anyway, orang kata, better reserve all the stories so that we can have someting to chat on, but me is different. Since from our house, until Kassa Corner, me and hubby was like non-stop telling stories and laugh. Especially when it comes about our only nephew, Adam. He is 3, and he is kind of boy that likes to do his own thing. Sometime ada sikit brutal and he is also type of boy yang tak peduli what's around him.

Well, last weekend, we went back to my sister-in-law's house in Bandar Mahkota Cheras. Decided to go there before my abah mentua merajuk with us sebab tak buka puasa dengan diorang lagi *giggling* (cegah sebelum berlaku)

so, biasala kan, me, hubby, abah mentua and mak mentua went out untuk cari something for berbuka. We brought along Adam and Addina. In the car, my mak mentua was like teaching Adam to spell, and this is how it goes

MM : Adam eja ikut nenek. T.O. TO..

Adam : ee..ee TO

MM : M.A. MA...

Adam : ee..ee MA

MM : T.O. TO...

Adam : ee..ee TO

MM : TO - MA - TO..

Adam : ee..ee TO

we were laughing out loud in the car as Adam only mentioning the last word. Well, Adam is a bit late in talking, so that's why even though he is 3, he still cant talk smoothly, and only ikut apa yang orang cakap. Normal la kan.. adoi..

Am supposely having lots of thing to write down, but now it seems that everythings are gone.. gone in just one blikn? konon je la.. Anyway, will continue to write soon, once my ideas running back to me and hit my brain again.. till then..

May Allah Bless

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I - A.M - P.I.S.S.E.D - O.F.F

2009-09-01T18:38:00.000-07:00

heyya.. am having too~ many things to speak about at this time. Yeah.. am pissed off.. totally P.I.S.S.E.D O.F.F!

Dunno why me recently amat senang sangat naik marah or being soooo emotional especially when there is someone yang can be classify as tak paham bahasa? Even though it is just for one simple and not-worth-it issue to raise about and im feeling like talking straight to that person' face and say "so what's the big deal?"

So what?? i have the right to choose what's best for my life, and who are you to question it anyway? Even my parents and husband agreed with my desicion.. so????????

I totally hate the way that person questioned me. I mean.. what the hell?? that person first statement was still ok for me to accept it without any heart feeling, but the second one was totally successfully and perfectly increased my temperature up high to the limit.. seriously folks..

I got those interviews and offers on my own foot! Do you got that? or you want me to repeat it next to your ears??? There's nothing got to do with that freaking institution that have given us like thousand promises but actually none! Take that facts ok. You guys just give us that valuable knowledge. Not more than that. Minor percentage of it might be really benefited on what you guys have been offered but not all. So, im telling you right now, stop of being such a kononnya miss/mr-curious-to-other-people.. oh please~ la.. quit it ok. Tak payah nak jaga tepi kain orang la in a simple word. *emo jugak ni

huh.. enough of being like so marah-marah.. plus.. i dont want to be old before usia.

Whatever it is, just be who you are and say what you want to say, however, always go through your words again before saying it out loud, and .....

gritted teeth "understand first before answer/ask it"

May Allah Bless

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Fasting in new phase? ♥

2009-08-23T22:54:00.000-07:00

Ramadhan is back!!!

But now it's a little bit different. Previously, i celebrated it with my family, but now, things were changed. I did it with my husband ♥hehe

A lot of funny things had happened, but actually, im not really in a good mood of writing it here as i completely running out of ideas~ LOL

But no worries, soon perhaps, when my mind is back to normal again, i'll write down the experience of fasting as husband and wife.

till then,

May Allah Bless

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Memoirs of my LATE grandfather

2009-08-23T06:50:00.000-07:00

Being in a sentimental mode today, i just couldn't get myself out from some memoirs that perfectly glued in my mind. Today i just want to write up about my dad's family, which the one that have been kept in my mind for more than 10 years. No offence here, or not trying to buka pekung di dada (is it the right peribahasa?-gasak), but i just want to say that i need my family back again. My dad needs his family desperately eventhough he just stay in mute.

my wedding day was the great day. Not because of the wedding itself, but, how i can see my dad was happy as he got his family back together again, eventhough it was just for a moment. I watched the video and i can see how happy my dad was, especially when he got all his siblings around. And i? i was happy too, but at the same time, im sad because my grandfather wasn't around with me... with us.

Everybody makes mistake. All of us cant escape from making mistakes intentionally or otherwise. But i do believe that God must have his own reason on turning things into something that we never ask for. I still remeber when i have my first chat with my late grandfather few months back after more than 10 years of lost contact. How i really am happy when we spoke together in a very short conversations. He kept on asking me on when can i pay him a visit to Terengganu as his health condition wasn't really good anymore.

We first met again after more than years during ayah ju's wedding. Eventhough it was just for one day, but i appreciate it loads. The moment before i left, i hugged my late grandfather, and i saw tears came out from his eyes. I was really touched, but there's nothing i can do. I was like an alien during the wedding, and some of the family just couldn't recognize me anymore. But i really am grateful to god for the opportunity as i can show to my sisters and told them,

"hey, look... he's your uncle, that one is your uncle's too, that one is your step grandmother, that one is your aunty, she is your cousin, he is your cousin, they are your cousins, and can you see the old man standing out there?? he is our grandfather"

*sigh*.. After about a month i did called my late grandfather and of course, once again he had asked me of when am i able to visit him in Terengganu, and i just couldn't answer it, until one day, when me and my family were in Kota Kinabalu, dad received a news that my late grandfather have been hospitalized. His condition was quite bad. We went to Terengganu like every 2 weeks to visit him, except my parents. They travelled to Terengganu like every week. How i can see through my dad's eyes as there's no other things that he could ask for more other than to be at his father's side for every single minute. He just wanted to appreciate the moment as much as he can. Well, we cant stop the takdir that already had fated when my grandfather finally left us to be with the god. Al-fatihah...

May Allah Bless
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H.A.R.R.Y - P.O.T.T.E.R

2009-08-23T06:26:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to : bird chirping in the bushes

Went for midnight movie @ sunway pyramid last night with hubby. Watched Harry Potter and the Half blood prince. Harry potter used to be one of my favourite movie but this one seems a little bit dissappointing. Well, i don't know, if JK Rowling is going to write another book after the half blood prince, then i'll have to agree the story line was like that. But if it is the last one, i would say that i regret to stay up late until 2am :C

the movie was like this, there were 3 scoundrels (Dark Lord peoples) yang keep on searching for Harry and Dumbledore, and they used Draco Malfoy as a path for them to enter the Hogwarts. And for the first time, in this movie, Draco Malfoy turned to become a lone ranger, quiet, depress and believe that he was the chosen one. (chosen for what? that was my Q too).

And, as i thought since the first Harry Potter, Professor Snape is an evil person as he's the one who killed Dumbledore, thus, Snape wasn't my liking either.during Harry's first class with Professor "dumbledore's-bestfriend", he found one book that belongs to the Half Blood Prince, and Harry thought it was belongs to Tom Riddle at first until finally Snape claimed that "i am the half blood prince"anyway, the story macam tergantung. Harry promised himself to cari the killer. ??? Arghhhhh.. i am disappointed!!!!catch up later.. i need to go back to subang.. daa..

may allah bless

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Plan.. Plan.. Plan..

2009-08-23T06:02:00.000-07:00

Currently listening to : Anis craps

Today i can say that my life was filled when Anis came over to my house just because to hang out with me and have F.U.N!!!.

It was kind of amazing when she skipped her part-time job just for me. I just wondering if she wasn't there with me especially the time where i can go insane in any minutes thinking of world's problems surrounded around me. Eventually, after endless second thoughts and procrastination, i managed to begged Anis to come to my place.. *wink..wink..* thank you dear~ it is such a wonderful day for me where we can hang out together with plenty heart to heart girl's talk. My current spare time really need to be occupied before i turn insane analyzing every single trivial details of my unsettled heart and life *uhuu.. me being dramatic??*

We did planned for something.. to be rich? definitely.. only me and Aniss will know the plan.. will proceed the plan next wednesday.. Im having this melancholic thoughts of whether i make a the right choice or not, but i do believe in god's faith that is already stated for me, with good doa and such, me and anis will make it. We can change our life to a better ones..

May Allah Bless
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B.e.E.p - b.E.E.p

2009-08-20T03:15:00.000-07:00

Being so sentimental today for NO reason ~ngeeee.. well, lets do not think of those things that can drag me into the tears world.. uh... that's pain..

Definitely the Ada Cinta song wont suits me at this moment, or can be say it will never ever suits me as i already have my Endless Love.. and he is my entirely, my love, my hubby.. hubby!!! i heart you!!!! *blush*

i still remember when i was really in bored few days back and i really got nothing to do. Nothing seriously. And i also have this sudden impromptu idea of packing up all my things as well as hubby's, catch any earliest flight to any destination with long journey duration as i love to be in an airplane with my hubby *wink..wink* well, i know that it wouldnt happen as he's hectically busy with work *sob..sob*

anyway, eventhough i got frustrated with the current condition, still i really am happy when he came back from work, he took me out for movie. We chose Alamanda. The nearest from our place. We went for 11.50pm Transformers which ended around 3am *whoaa..*
3am at Alamanda, that was my first time of being there like pagi-pagi buta *giggles* and our car was the only left at the P4 carpark. Tragic night for me as we have to walk all over from the autopay machine somewhere at P2 to P4. Hilarious though. Well, that doesn't matter much, on the brighter side, i got something from my husband when im in need of his positive vibes and we shared giggles together. That was the sweetest things..

thank you so much hun, i love you ~

May Allah Bless
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10 Line Spillage

2009-08-20T02:26:00.000-07:00

Hajar's 10 line spillage

1 - it's much easier to spill to a stranger, spares the stigma and the judgement.

2 - it's much easier to be understood by somebody who has been there and done that.

3 - everybody has skeletons in their closet.

4 - i don't say "take a bit from my plate, chew, telan then talk" for no reason.

5 - reality hurts, truth bites, living kills, today tortures, and yerterdays are just as bad, what else is new? the only comfort is knowing we're proudly smart enough to live life the way we want it, though other will never fail to try to screw it for us, we prove them wrong. Again and again.

6 - a friend can be a good psychologist, but sometimes i doubt it vice versa.

7 - psychiatrist + Doctor + Meds = Bittersweet vendetta.

8 - there are times when we want to be vulnerable though how thick skinned we appear

9 - believing on god's love, live on because of his love, nothing can beat that, i know you'd agree.

10 - they have no idea what i understand from the word "MIRROR" because i hate what i see looking back at me.there are times when strangers are ike family and family are like strangers. Reality bites and truth hurts.

Welcome to h-e-a-r-t world!!

may allah bless
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2009-08-19T23:51:00.000-07:00

Bismillah....

Dedicated to:-

My all: Masrizwan Mohamed

The wonderful people who picked up my pieces and glued it back together with tender-loving-care, patience and unconditional love, my anchor throughout the storm and turbulence: Mak and Ayah

My lifeguards: Angah, Acik, Adik and Baby Ily

My silver-lining bearers: jah

My very own Godsent blessings: Anis, Kak Hannan, Salmi, Jaz

My cruthes: people who cares.

Allah protects those spreading love through
its glory
Where are those who love one another through
my glory?
Today i shall give them shade in
my shade, its being a day when
there is no shade, but my my shade.
It was related by Al-Bukhari (also by Malik)

Everybody is talking about the death of late Michael Jackson. Here and there, every angle of the world. But the lost of him is undeniable. God had created us and he can take it back without a sign. Eventhough i'm not a big fan of MJ, still, i can feel the sadness of loosing him in the industry yet, i'm happy that died in Islam.
He was born in 1958, same year as my mom. It clearly shows, bukan yang tua saja akan mati, kanak-kanak juga mati, kita yang muda juga boleh mati.. it is just a matter of time.. when and where.. only god knows. Grateful to god as my mom is still here in this world with me, with dad and sisters.
Anyway, last night, i've read my diary and i did wrote something in it. Was thinking to write in this blog and share it to anyone who passing by this page (if any).

you call it boring
you call it drama
you call it cliche
you call it too much spice
as for me
i call it L.I.F.E..

WELCOME ABOARD

"... ini hikayat sebuah bicara..
bicara bumbung namanya..."

Al-Ankabut (29 : 2)
~ Adakah mereka merasakan mereka telah beriman sedangkan mereka belum di uji? ~
(ayat yang di pegang sebagai pengubat luka bila hati di uji.. when faith is put at test. Sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang2 yang sabar.. itu janji-Nya)

hidup kita tak selalunya lawa, tak selalunya ada pelangi. Kalau nak kata a bed of roses pun, duri-durinya tetap ada.. kan?
Kadang-kadang, calamity tu datang and waktu tu kita rasa macam kena gelek ke bumi oleh ahli sumo.
rasa macam dah tak mampu nak bangkit. Giving up will come at this time.
Tapi, waktu apa pun yang jadi, ingat apa yang Dia selalu pesan ~ Allah takkan bebankan hambanya dengan apa yang hambanya tak mampu..
no matter what, no matter when, no matter when it doesn't at all make sense. DO NOT LEAVE YOUR LOVE LETTER'S COMPILATION (i.e like kita punya ultimate life manual, the Quran). It is the last thread to sanity even if everything else failed.

bak kata Hemingway

"life breaks us all, but its in the end, we are stronger in the broken places"
and true... things are easier said than done. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi nahu yang pikul..
yakinlah pada Dia.. Allah Azzawajalla...

may allah bless
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