DOWN....Down....down....i'm down....

I'm down...


yes.. i'm down...


I always pretend that i'm smiling..


but deep down inside my heart, i'm crying...


no one knows...


i always wish for something...


but i never get it...


miss.. that is...


pain... yes..i always in pain....


and now.... i just want to sleep...


please go away from me...


please...


please...


please...

Hari ini adalah hari yang sangat menyedihkan for me. Tipu la if i kata i dont feel anything right now, because, sad that is.. It controlling my emotion and i just couldn't get rid of it. A mixture of everything, and it turned up as one.. macam 1 Malaysia gitu..



But today seriously isn't really my day. I wish i could jump off from here, fly and just go to any places yang aku rasa boleh tenangkan hati aku yang memang tengah kacau!!

Hey! March is bulan jiwa kacau.... for me la.. and most of my friends pun cm setuju je dengan aku. Hoping for something in April.. something good perhaps..


well, i dont know whether i can talk about work or not here, but seriously, i do need to say it..
*omg..can you just shut ur phone off!! your song is damn %^&* annoying*
ok.. sambung.. haih.. OMG!!! damn serabut la throughout this week.. sangat semak! and of course, aku sendiri pun tak tahu kenapa.. lately ni macam sensitive, i can't accepts criticism towards me (eventhough it's for something good).. and banyak laaaaa..


what else to write?? seee.. nak tulis pun tiba-tiba pulak out of ideas.. tadi berlambak je..
takpelaa.. stop dulu.. daaa

Cinta Sempurna

Aku manusia lemah

Selalu terjatuh

Berbeda aku darimu

Kau berdiri teguh..

Aku serba tiada

Aku kekurangan

Dan bila kau tiba aku hilang dari kewujudan..

Sempurnanya sifatmu

Tulusnya hati

Jujurnya niatmu

Tingginya kesabaranmu

Lepaskanlah diriku

Kerna aku tak mampu 'tuk menanggung sebuah cinta sempurna darimu..

darimu..

Bukan aku tak pernah

Mengerti dirimu

Ku sanjung setiap kata cinta kau berikan

Aku...

Hilangkan rasa itu

Akhirkan semua

Dan bila kau sedar

Aku hilang dari kewujudan...

3 in 1 - boleh x?

urrghhh!!!!


sungguh tidak mempunyai banyak masa untuk meng'update'kan blog aku ni. But always trying my best la..


yesterday aku rasa nothing much la yang jadi.. nothing interesting to share about..


Today?? yeah.. maybe.. my family left Malaysia for Umrah this evening.. sangat sedih because tak dapat ikut. To do Umrah and Haji with hubby is one of my dream after marriage.. hehe.. wish we could fly there too.. unfortunately, with limited number of annual leave given by the company, dapat pegi airport tengok they all berangkat pun jadi laaaa... sedih gila ayat.. ayat org pasrah.. huhuhu


Tomorrow will come.. in fact, it does!! and it is 19 hours more to the so-called bowling tournament.. huhuhu.. after 9 years of not touching the ball, hope i still can make it la tomorrow.. aiyakk!! seram kauu...



ok la.. mata aku ngantuk.. tapi perut aku lapar.. still waiting for hubby to come home.. lambat la pulekkkkk... ish..


ok.. gtg.. while waiting, apa salahnya if aku lelapkan mata sekejap.. huhuhu... daaa..

-Acute Tonsillitis-

I have less work today compared to the other day, but i cant say anything much jugak la.. sometimes, i thought i have no works, tp, after lunch je, there were like macam2 hal yang datang.. huhuhu..



i was about to go out dah tadi.. to get some fruits.. i kan nk diet.. then kena tunggu cik yaya pulak..



"nak tunjuk muka kat boss" katanye.. whatever la kn..





last month, i found out that aku dapat tonsil.. huhu.. the doctor siap buat drawing lagi kat aku since dia rasa cam aku nampak blur kn.. lol. she just said, the tonsil almost nk sentuh my anak tekak, and it can be very dangerous la as it can block your breathing. Memang pun...



ok la.. i did took the medicaton.. then afta that, since the painful was gone, aku dgn bangganya ingat, my tonsil pn gone la.. until one day, after i had 1 big bekas of keropok keping with hubby, tekak aku rasa pedih balik.. "shit la... it comes again"..
so, apa lag kan, Lourdes!!! here i come!!..

with the same doctor but different time, she said "i refer you to hospital Serdang ye for surgery".. and i was like "............"... (padan jugak muka aku sebenarnya.. teringin nk masuk hospital kan?? hah.. hamik kauuu)...


so, now, aku tgh berpantang laa.. no more ice cold.. no more spicy foods, no more oily foods (tapi skrg sedang menikmati nugget and sausage haha)


whatever la kan...


ok la.. gtg.. daaaa...

Bye KL, Hello KT

I was having one kind of disease called "split personality" since i steped into a working life. Well, I don't think it sounds scary, but at that time, I realized that I need at least a day off for myself to balance up my life again. *like what I'm doing now.. blogging.. eventhough there are still pending works..but..c'mon.. give a break*





It begun with when hubby told me that the PROPERD is planning for a trip to Gambang Water Park in Pahang, but too bad, I'm not interested in water park thingy. So we've decided to go to Terengganu, kononnya boleh la i tunjukkan my school, my house and my late grandpa's house to my hubby since i used to spend my 7 years in Kuala Terengganu before we permenantly moved to KL *wink..wink*

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Ok, we've started our journey around 7 in the morning, kononnya nak catch up those PROPERDians punya convoy, because before that, we stopped by kt my in laws house. Saje je.. menantu yang baik la katakan.. lol.. *geli*. If lambat gerak, nanti kena tinggal plak kn..and of course, tak sempat nak stop by kat my in laws house. Ok la.. cut the story short, we reached the Tol Gombak aroung 8.50 cmtu.. Amazingly, satu kereta pun takde kat sana. Me and hubby was like ?????? apakah??

Me: are we late? or dorg yang x sampai lg ni?

Hubby: ntah laaa...

Me: call la tanya...

Hubby: *dialing number* .. hello.. kt mane? hah, dh lepas dari tol Gombak? Semua dh gerak ke?..... *terputus*

Me: so, wats up??

Hubby: putus...kate dh lepas tol gombak.

Me: ..........

and because of nak kejar the convoy punya pasal, my husband was driving macam nak race kt F1 dh rasanye.. After about an hour of driving, then we saw one pelik green colour car which is also known as "keta kaler katak" among me and sisters kat depan. Yang paling kelakar, kereta hijau tu je satu2 nya yang ada and my hubby was like, where's the rest?

Oooooo...rupa2 nya, they all x gerak pn lagi from tol gombak. And owner kereta hijau tu is an army.. so, agak punctual, and those yg lambat, dia tinggal. Bahagia tak hidup dia? lol.

So ok la, only 2 cars headng to RnR Temerloh to join other convoy yg from Pahang. So, of course la, we took the great opportunity to isi perut jugak la.. We had gulai tempoyak ikan patin. All tme favourites man!! gosh.. i just couldn't say NO to something that i LIKE.. lol

taken somewhere at Sri Petaling. Nice sunrise view *love*

Ok la.. once other from KL dh sampai, we all gerak la from RnR Temerloh.. There were about 20 cars kot, or even more *lost count* heading to Gambang.. Except me and hubby la of course..

Actually there were sooooo many things to talk about.. tapi it seems that i'm very very the malas now.. so, lets allow the picture speaks ok.. hehehe

the convoy

my all time favourite! split banana *wondering, why is it split?*




its pulau kapas ye everyone.. tempat nostalgia LOL

The Felda Residence Hotel, Kuala Terengganu. Not so bad hotel after all.

my mom punya ofis lama back in Terengganu.. hehe

aha... yeap.. this house used to be my 1st house when i was in KT 16 years ago.. it looks much horror now. I mean.. really. The housing area itself looks very buruk, horror and bla..bla..bla..

yibba..yibba.. this is my late grandpa's house and still is.. the different is, he's no longer belongs to be in this world with us.. but lets the memoirs of him plays around..

ahaks..finally.. this is my house guys!!.. its a double storey house, but i dont know why, nampak bahagian atas je, that is used to be my parents room.. LOL

this mosque satu masa dulu was sangat cantik and big.. but now, only nampak the menara.. tenggelam with the development.. but its still functioning well ok..hehe

this is the reason why im choosing Terengganu to be my weekend getaway destination with hubby.. as i know, im leaving behind so many kinds of memories in Terengganu.

the view from the hotel car park. I heart this so much. Very pantai timur view..

hubby is going insane.. lol

Actually, 7 years in Terengganu giving me such beautiful memories and hope that the memories will be always in my heart..never fade...

sooner or later, will come back here again of course.. it is just a matter of time...

so long Terengganu...

A Mixture of Everythng.

well, i think it begun with an email that i received few days ago. The email that was sent by one makhluk yg mcm $%^& yang suddenly illegally entered into my life *eventhough you are married to my cousin, it doesnt mean that i can declare you as my so called cousininlaw*


I'm not going to do a story telling here.. it just that if i have a chance to speak up right on his face, i would say that "you're nuthing to me so stay away from my life..you stupid big black ugly and smells like rubbish #$%&*^" ~ *phewww*

*****

okay..okay.. enuf of carut-ing to him.. GTH la kan... hoho.. i would be please if he read this so that he would know how much i hate him! if ada perkataan yg lagi dasat dari 'hate', haa, mmg perkataan tu la yg akan aku guna.. Unfortunately, i cant think of any.. "hate" would be fine to me i guess.

*arghhh!! i just couldnt take him out from my mind!! no wonder la gelap je otak aku ni.. segelap kulitnya yg macam bontot kuali tu.. huh*

Sorry la *****, he's the one who can be blame..not me.. and please... remind him of not to go far beyond his limit.. remember.. when i say it, i mean it.

*****

ok.. throw him away now.. lets begin with other topic.. *aaaaaaaaaaa...* cant think of any la pulok *menggunakan gaya bahasa ala...sape tu.. lupa plak nama dia.. the one yg dalam iklan lasindah cafe tu.. that old man~LOL*

haih.. OMG..OMG.. otak kau tepu sekarang ni.

this morning i thought i had those simptoms that can lead me to bad fever *best jugak dpt demam ni* .. tp after lunch, mcm ok la pulak.. buy my throat still in pain ok.. kahak pn still ade.. amazingly, xde la plak i batuk ke, flu ke.. maintain je *punahla harapan utk mendapat sekeping MC*

owh..saya sgt stress now!! i really am.. for the first time ever, i'm counting the numbers..LOL.. sgt desperate nk balik rumah.. i just couldnt stand anymore to sit here in my office, plus aku rasa macam nk demam la.. i'm having all the simptoms now, but it seems that the virus is yet to hit my body.. please... aku nak demam.. *boleh tak?*


err.. i think i should make a move now.. i wanna go home on time.. *konon ajela kot*


my head is heavy.. my throat is in pain.. lack of water? perhaps... *sigh*


owh..btw.. now i know the name of that old man yg the one in Lasindah cafe punya iklan tu... its M.Rajoli.. LOL... sanggup....