Siapa aku.....

Aku bukanlah seorang yang pandai dalam mengarang kata-kata.. and aku bukanlah seorang yang bijak menyusun ayat-ayat puitis. Aku adalah aku.. seorang anak sulung yang essentially agak keras kepala, stubborn, day-dreamer, lazy, hot-tempered, loud, etc.. Tapi, siapa je yang tahu bahawa aku sebenarnya adalah seorang yang sensitive, kind-hearted, soft-spoken, shy, mudah mengalah, tak boleh tengok kesusahan orang lain, etc... even my parents can't figure it out. Pelik kan? I was kinda having this so-called split personality (not much).. I'm different at home, and different at the outside.. faham tak? tak? nevermind.. leave it..



aku tiba-tiba rasa nak berubah. This is it. To make some changes in me even though not too drastic. Baru aku sedar, all these while aku bukanlah aku. And it makes me pause for few second to actually figure out who am i previously.

Even me myself is unable to think about it. Perhaps i may need someone to tell me who i was before.

Technically, i'm not satisfied with myself. There are whole lots of things that i want to achive in life and i want to be totally a new me by end of this year. I can't stand to be like this anymore where sometimes i can't find my momentum in life.

I think god had already done something to me.. kalau tak, macamana aku boleh terfikir untuk ubah diri aku untuk menjadi aku yang sebenarnya.

Susah.?? memang.. this will be one new cabaran for me.. whether i can make it or not? lets leave it to god's will, and my discipline... Insyaallah..