*mode geram*

ooo..yes!! am pretty upset with TM Point Cyberjaya today, especially the guy yang called me up tu la.. luckily you're not in front of me la man.. or else, free-free je dapat amukan puaka dari aku (maklumla.. sejak kahwin mak makin garang nyah)..

The story macam ni la.. i overlooked my streamyx bill, so, ade the month tu tak bayar, jadi outstanding la kan.. ok, i understand that. So, i found the bill, and pagi-pagi lagi datang office, i terus pegi bayar la the bill kat menara TM punya TM point ni. Alaaa..sebulan je pun outstandingnya.. bukan setahun...

Then, around 12pm camtu, the guy called me la.. and asked, who is Mr.Marzuki Abdullah and i was like ???? that's my apak and apa kena mengena dengan aku??.. eyh, susahla nak explain like this, to make it easier, below is the conversation between me and Mr.T tu la ye..

Me : Hello??

Mr.T : Hello, saya dari TM Cyberjaya, boleh saya tahu siapa En.Marzuki Abdullah? (without telling his name)

Me : ??? (amboi mamat ni, CSI ke?) En.Marzuki? Ayah saya la.. kenapa??

Mr.T : Ok, saya nak bagitahu, bill telefon ada outstanding of RM78.11, dan sila buat pembayaran secepat mungkin ye.

Me : ???? what do you mean outstanding? saya dah settlekan semua bill pagi tadi.

Mr.T : Dah settlekan? berapa awak bayar?

Me : RM145.11 la.. yang tertunggak RM78.11 and current charge.

Mr.T : ok.. kat mana bayar tu?

Me : ??? (u can retrieve all the info pe?) Menara TM.

Mr.T : Oooo..ye..ye..ok.. terima kasih.

Me : ???? (what the f%&k!)

Memang la if baca from the conversation apala sangat kan.. tapi, on the customer side, i agak bengang jugak. Yela.. you as a customer service people, nak tanya customer, ask in a proper way la.. gaya bahasa tu kasi lawa sikit la..

and another thing, setiap customer service people, they are able to retrieve all customer's info from their system.. from A - Z.. so, there is no single reason why you have to call up the customer just because to ask whether do they have paid? how much they pay? where and when and etc. Everything is on your fingertips and that's why i sangat tak boleh terima kenapa the guy kena call me up!

Furthermore, before you nak call the customer, you kena check dulu the account.. bukan call dulu then baru terhegeh-hegeh nak check account. Huh..bodoh ke bangang??

haih.. donia..donia..

So, at the end of the day, tak pasal-pasal the guy dapat nama timangan from me, which is Mr.T.. as in MR.TAIK!!!

whoaaa... i'm in office actually right now.. and i have about 40 minutes to go before i can call it a day. But, i can see that my tanduk setan dah keluar agak tinggi jugak.. so, i rasa i nak blah sekarang jugak. Hopefully tak kantoi with my apak la.. ngeh..ngeh..ngeh.. no way la kan.. i'm in menara TM.. my apak is in Menara Annexe 1.. ala.. located next to Menara TM je pun (macam jauh je cakap..huhuhu) .. But at least the probability of terserempak with him is very low la kan.. but next year, my apak punya department will permenantly move back to level 9 menara TM, so, rasanya, not so high risk jugak, medium la maybe.. because, my office is in level 54.. and he's going to be in level 9, so, definitely we are using different lift la.. heheheheh... i loike..

eyh..ok la.. i got to go now.. nak balik la... bosan.. daaaa...

to its end..

Today is 3rd of December in the year of 2009. Can’t believe that the year of 2009 is almost to its end and 2010 is on the way to rise and shine up, and it will be the beginning of my so-called new life. Is that my new ‘azam’ for next year?. It could be possible thus I really am seriously looking forward to change my life to the better.


I just had started my career as an Assistant Manager Business Operation 4, Global Alliance with TM Global on the 1st of December 2009, which falls exactly on my mother’s birthday. And I believe that it could be the priceless gift for my awesome mother. I’m definitely grateful to god for giving me the chance of making my parents are proud of me which we might not getting the chance all the time because it’s not easy to make people happy. For now on, I’m hoping for something good in future. Success in career, to have kids and happy family, to be a good Muslim and to balance myself, especially when it comes to religious part. I think I should make a move now. I have to move up to another step in order to makes my life fully blessed by God.


hmmm... what else to talk about? I'm currently doing nothing in my office as my manager is somewhere in Cyberjaya right now. Meeting the client. And tomorrow i'll be in Menara TM for the whole day. Totally running out of ideas what will be next tomorrow. Hopefully there's something for me to learn. At least i can have a iew of my job responsibilities and able to understand every single things that have been raised up during the meeting. If tak, melopong je.. hehe..


Anyway, another 30 minutes to go, and as i cna see outside, its going to rain in any minutes now. Luckily i have my umbrella with me. Yeah.. going to walk to my car all over from the Plaza VADS carrying 2 laptop!! hah! they should inform me earlier about giving me the laptop so that will not bring my own! and now see what happen???!!! senget my bahu!!


think i got to go now. Will be contibue soon.

Those Good Old Days

Name : Siti Hajar Binti Marzuki

Age : 24 going to 25

DOB : 16 December 1984

POB : Pasir Puteh, Kelantan

Marital Status : Married

Uni : BA (HONS) International Business, University of East London.

Diploma in Business Studies, Universiti Teknologi Mara.

High school (s) : Sek Men Keb Seafield (Form 6 - 2 weeks only)

Sek Men Keb Subang Utama (1997 - 2001)

Primary School (s) : Sek Ren SS19 ('96)

why did i higlighted the primary school (s) part? because, whenever people ask me regarding my primary school, SS19 will be the one that came out from my mouth. But i think i almost forgot that i actually have another school, where i've spent almost 70% of my primary time in that place, which is the Sek Ren Sultan Sulaiman 1, Kuala Terengganu.

Recently i found one of my x-schoolmate in SS1.. He's not only my x-schoolmate, but also used to be my classmate and neighbour back in Kuala Terengganu about 14 years ago. What a miracle actually.. Haha yela.. i didn't expect to jumpa balik those yang SS1-ians.. from his page if found this what so-called as "xssone" group, belongs to batch 91-96, which is my batch la.. amazing.. hahaha..

Glad that i still can remember few of them.. it is just that, they aren't remember me.. Maybe i tak habiskan most of my primary years in SS1, whereby they all membesar bersama-sama.. perhaps.. anyway, i really am hoping that i can find more friends from SS1, like few of them who i still can remember.. like Nur Sahara.. Munirah.. lagi siapa ye? owh.. Nina.. and ramai lagi.. unable to recall the name..

Talking about Munirah.. i takdela rapat sangat dengan die.. but, the reason why i still can remember her name, Munirah was known as a girl who is very quiet.. we hardly can hear she speak.. full of gold in her mouth..haha.. i dont know.. but that is Munirah.. cikgu selalu marah dia because whenever the teacher ask her to read from the book, no one can hear her voice.. in fact, no one knows whether does she really read or miming??? only she and god knows.. Anyway, been thinking.. how is she now.. is she is still like before?? quiet.. lone ranger.. really hope to see her..

Whatever it is, the Sultan Sulaiman 1 memories will be always perfectly glued in my mind... how can i just forget the place where i got my first lesson in facing the real world.. one fine day, i'll pay a visit to the school..

May Allah Bless

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W.E.E.K.E.N.D

Weekend at home..

Nothing much.. my in laws are here to spend their weekend, which is ok la kn..

anyway, going out for awhile.. toodles!!

DULL

Gosh! im so not in the mood today for blogging. LAZY is the perfect words to me as i cant think of any juicy stories to share. My brain is totally blank and.... yeah... im so sleepy..

What a bored saturday...

urghhhh.. i need something interesting!!! PLEASE!!!!!

BACK!!!

Hey!!

i'm back again.. after about 2 weeks. I really am enjoying my hols.. Balik kampung to celebrate raya, went to Hong kong for Honeymoon+Family holidays. Splendid hols ever!! Eventhough this year punya Raya was celebrated dgn penuh kesederhanaan, but i can feel the diffenrence still..


Anyway, i'm not looking forward to continue writing right now, as it's already late at night. In a simple word, time to tido la.. C;


Perhaps will continue writing tomorrow, once i get all my works done appropriately.. Till then, see ya!

May Allah Bless

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ho-yeah!! i ingored my blog from i think almost a week and i think i should update it now before im gonna leave it untouch for another week.. hah.. ok-ok.. before my merapuness takes place (and i think its already does), aku sendiri pun tak tahu nak tulis ape. LOL


Last night rasanya macam banyak sangat yang nak story in here.. but now macam dh .. B.L.A.N.K ~


owh .. i was thinking 'bout the camera.. haha.. (ok-ok..i got it). well, i think am gonna get myself one camera where i can keep it safely in my handbag (bukan gantung on my neck ye tuan2 and puan2). Like my husband's camera..




aha.. this is his craziness towards his DSLR camera.. no matter where and when, during what and what.. the camera dh jadi his 3rd wife kot.. 1st is me, second is his car, 3rd is his camera.. oo.. and 1 still kosong la if camtu.. haha




this pic was taken when we had our dinner kat Danga Bay.. Buka puasa of course and that day we all macam kebulur gilak!! LOL

Yela.. we drove all the way from KL to my hubby's workplace. We got lost before that.. How i hate JB yaw! (sorry JB-ians)

But at the end, we managed to find the place. It was like behind the Pelangi ape ntah.. it wasnt the Pelangi Mall.. I dont know..

Then, lepas he done with his work, we left JB to Kulai pulak. By using the directions printed by google maps pun we all sesat jugak. Ish.. menyampah dh dengan google maps ni. Ok la, finally we found the place la.. but then my hubby tak boleh nak continue buat kerja la because the clock strikes 5pm already. Kira time to go home la.. then we chose to cari hotel terdekat la.. But seriously.. i hate JB and Kulai so much.. the town memang terkulai betul la.. signboard hotel memang banyak, TETAPI ...................... hotel yg kitorg jumpa mostly macam hidup segan, mati anytime.. LOL

ok la.. to make it short, we found one small hotel kat Danga Bay tu la.. Named as Kozi Hotel. Maybe new budget hotel kot.. kot je la.. the price pun kira ok.. kira RM100 per night.. Tapi.. the room memang unexpected la.. seriously.. I imagine, since hotel tu kira hotel murah, so, i bayangkan the room pun kira..cm tu la kan.. faham2 la.. but..wallaaa!!! we went inside, we both like terpegun gila.. Room was small.. but not bad.. modern living type of room, with queen size bed, drink set, hair dryer, and yang paling buat me terkejut, they have a new Toshiba Regza slim TV tu.. *whoaa*.. for a budget hotel?? memeng unexpected habis la..

huhu.. eyh, time for me to plan apa yang nak masak la.. me need to go out kejap. Cari ikan.. LOL.. toodles!!

May Allah Bless

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I just got back from Johor.


Had a good trip i guess eventhough it was just a really short one. As long as i do it with my hubby, everything is F.U.N ♥ ♥ ♥


Think my head really cant think of any words right now. Eyes only can see BED .. Head only sees BED .. Mind only thinks BED .. awhh.. i truly need my BED ..


Guess, will drop something here tomorrow..


till then~ toodles!!

May Allah Bless

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Ragam Manusia

Take a look around you.. especially those people who you think that you know them really well. Do you really know them? or know them for the sake of knowing them? I've been keeping this for a long time already, it's just that i do not know how to spill it in a good manner. Let it sounds like generally.. not specifically point it to anyone. People' understanding might be different from us.. kot-kot ada yang terperasan lebih, nanti tak pasal-pasal konon emotional tak bertempat pulak kan...

i did observed few peoples around me (closest one). It's about friendship of course. To have a really good, caring, and honest friend is not easy. Sometime we feels like we already have one (or more), but do we really know our friend? Friends can be anything, and there were few that i've been found out.. but this one is my personal punya rasa laa..

1. claims that he/she is your good friend, but when you really are in need of her positive vibes, he/she's not there.

or

he/she might be there, but you get nothing from him/her.

2. Been together for ages, but you're the one yang jadi kuli batak dia or like lembu kena cucuk hidung. Ada jugak yang macamni, and the person yang konon our best friend tu, just nak take advantage on our kebaikan. Pun ada jugak...

3. Chipsmore friend. Macam chipsmore la.. Sekejap ada, sekejap takde ... bila susah, baru nak terhegeh-hegeh cari kita.. bila senang, you wont hear anything from him/her.. not even one sms.

4. Kawan yang konon really nice in front of us.. behind us??? talking craps about you? Memang dasar bontot masam la kan..

Haih.. friends can be anything folks.. Ada yang baik dengan kita, but with others, he/she's not.. and it can be otherwise.

I did come across one situation in friendship thingy, where this person can be said as too obsessed with her friend which i can describe her friend as someone who is just nak take advantage atas kebaikan this person. I mean.. really.. this person sampai sanggup put her family away just because of her friend.. it's crazy ok.. well, im glad that they now been seperated.. this girl really make a mess to the family with her "rubbish" stories.. dia rasa orang percaya dia kot.. but actually, silap.. the family just couldnt accept her anymore in life and cant accept her anymore to be their daughter's friend.

Just think ok, a true friend should always make each other happy. But this lady, yang konon nya a good friend (topeng je) boleh marah her friend sebab lebihkan family dari dia.. anyway.. GILA KA???? siapalah kita nak orang lebihkan dari keluarga orang tu sendiri.. This crazy woman maybe bukan datang dari bumi kot? entahlaa..

Dear Allah, kurniakanlah daku sahabat-sahabat sejati yang boleh kujadikan teman di masa senang dan susah. Amin~

May Allah Bless

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ABC hunting ... Story hunting

Last night i was craving for the Air Batu Campur and memang macam preggers dah~ LOL. Macam dah lama sangat tak makan ABC, especially the one with different colours of syrup on the ice with lots of sweet corns, jellies, peanuts and the most important --> the ice cream.. Owh~ that's really fascinates me entirely. Rasa macam nak peluk the ABC bowl tu to avoid sudu-sudu haram yang nak tumpang dua kaki? GO AWAY!!!!! LOL







Was planned with my hubby to go for ABC around 8.30pm, unfortunately, i was like giving my full attention on the TV, and hubby with his FarmVille thingy, until the clock went to 9.30pm, we still couldn't make any decision on where to go. Plus, i have this thought in my mind

'adeke orang jual ABC malam2? kedai mana still bukak?'

We totally have no idea on that, plus, previously pun, we've never gone for any ABC hunting at night. (anyway, before kahwin la.. after kahwin pun never jugak~hehe)

ok la.. with maria's help, finally we went for Kassa Corner at Putra heights. Not so far from my place. The food were good though. We ordered Nasi goreng belacan thai, Udang goreng celup tepung, seafood tomyam and of course ........... ABC. I was expecting the ABC should be how i wanted it to be, and unfortunately, it just a normal ABC like kampung area (well, the ABC is still yummy). So, konon-konon to be positive, i told my husband

'ok la utk hilangkan ngidam sementara waktu'

this is how the ABC that im craving for :C

Anyway, orang kata, better reserve all the stories so that we can have someting to chat on, but me is different. Since from our house, until Kassa Corner, me and hubby was like non-stop telling stories and laugh. Especially when it comes about our only nephew, Adam. He is 3, and he is kind of boy that likes to do his own thing. Sometime ada sikit brutal and he is also type of boy yang tak peduli what's around him.

Well, last weekend, we went back to my sister-in-law's house in Bandar Mahkota Cheras. Decided to go there before my abah mentua merajuk with us sebab tak buka puasa dengan diorang lagi *giggling* (cegah sebelum berlaku)

so, biasala kan, me, hubby, abah mentua and mak mentua went out untuk cari something for berbuka. We brought along Adam and Addina. In the car, my mak mentua was like teaching Adam to spell, and this is how it goes

MM : Adam eja ikut nenek. T.O. TO..

Adam : ee..ee TO

MM : M.A. MA...

Adam : ee..ee MA

MM : T.O. TO...

Adam : ee..ee TO

MM : TO - MA - TO..

Adam : ee..ee TO

we were laughing out loud in the car as Adam only mentioning the last word. Well, Adam is a bit late in talking, so that's why even though he is 3, he still cant talk smoothly, and only ikut apa yang orang cakap. Normal la kan.. adoi..

Am supposely having lots of thing to write down, but now it seems that everythings are gone.. gone in just one blikn? konon je la.. Anyway, will continue to write soon, once my ideas running back to me and hit my brain again.. till then..

May Allah Bless

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I - A.M - P.I.S.S.E.D - O.F.F

heyya.. am having too~ many things to speak about at this time. Yeah.. am pissed off.. totally P.I.S.S.E.D O.F.F!

Dunno why me recently amat senang sangat naik marah or being soooo emotional especially when there is someone yang can be classify as tak paham bahasa? Even though it is just for one simple and not-worth-it issue to raise about and im feeling like talking straight to that person' face and say "so what's the big deal?"

So what?? i have the right to choose what's best for my life, and who are you to question it anyway? Even my parents and husband agreed with my desicion.. so????????

I totally hate the way that person questioned me. I mean.. what the hell?? that person first statement was still ok for me to accept it without any heart feeling, but the second one was totally successfully and perfectly increased my temperature up high to the limit.. seriously folks..

I got those interviews and offers on my own foot! Do you got that? or you want me to repeat it next to your ears??? There's nothing got to do with that freaking institution that have given us like thousand promises but actually none! Take that facts ok. You guys just give us that valuable knowledge. Not more than that. Minor percentage of it might be really benefited on what you guys have been offered but not all. So, im telling you right now, stop of being such a kononnya miss/mr-curious-to-other-people.. oh please~ la.. quit it ok. Tak payah nak jaga tepi kain orang la in a simple word. *emo jugak ni

huh.. enough of being like so marah-marah.. plus.. i dont want to be old before usia.

Whatever it is, just be who you are and say what you want to say, however, always go through your words again before saying it out loud, and .....

gritted teeth "understand first before answer/ask it"

May Allah Bless

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Fasting in new phase? ♥

Ramadhan is back!!!

But now it's a little bit different. Previously, i celebrated it with my family, but now, things were changed. I did it with my husband ♥hehe

A lot of funny things had happened, but actually, im not really in a good mood of writing it here as i completely running out of ideas~ LOL

But no worries, soon perhaps, when my mind is back to normal again, i'll write down the experience of fasting as husband and wife.

till then,

May Allah Bless

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Memoirs of my LATE grandfather

Being in a sentimental mode today, i just couldn't get myself out from some memoirs that perfectly glued in my mind. Today i just want to write up about my dad's family, which the one that have been kept in my mind for more than 10 years. No offence here, or not trying to buka pekung di dada (is it the right peribahasa?-gasak), but i just want to say that i need my family back again. My dad needs his family desperately eventhough he just stay in mute.

my wedding day was the great day. Not because of the wedding itself, but, how i can see my dad was happy as he got his family back together again, eventhough it was just for a moment. I watched the video and i can see how happy my dad was, especially when he got all his siblings around. And i? i was happy too, but at the same time, im sad because my grandfather wasn't around with me... with us.

Everybody makes mistake. All of us cant escape from making mistakes intentionally or otherwise. But i do believe that God must have his own reason on turning things into something that we never ask for. I still remeber when i have my first chat with my late grandfather few months back after more than 10 years of lost contact. How i really am happy when we spoke together in a very short conversations. He kept on asking me on when can i pay him a visit to Terengganu as his health condition wasn't really good anymore.


We first met again after more than years during ayah ju's wedding. Eventhough it was just for one day, but i appreciate it loads. The moment before i left, i hugged my late grandfather, and i saw tears came out from his eyes. I was really touched, but there's nothing i can do. I was like an alien during the wedding, and some of the family just couldn't recognize me anymore. But i really am grateful to god for the opportunity as i can show to my sisters and told them,

"hey, look... he's your uncle, that one is your uncle's too, that one is your step grandmother, that one is your aunty, she is your cousin, he is your cousin, they are your cousins, and can you see the old man standing out there?? he is our grandfather"

*sigh*.. After about a month i did called my late grandfather and of course, once again he had asked me of when am i able to visit him in Terengganu, and i just couldn't answer it, until one day, when me and my family were in Kota Kinabalu, dad received a news that my late grandfather have been hospitalized. His condition was quite bad. We went to Terengganu like every 2 weeks to visit him, except my parents. They travelled to Terengganu like every week. How i can see through my dad's eyes as there's no other things that he could ask for more other than to be at his father's side for every single minute. He just wanted to appreciate the moment as much as he can. Well, we cant stop the takdir that already had fated when my grandfather finally left us to be with the god. Al-fatihah...


May Allah Bless
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H.A.R.R.Y - P.O.T.T.E.R

Currently listening to : bird chirping in the bushes

Went for midnight movie @ sunway pyramid last night with hubby. Watched Harry Potter and the Half blood prince. Harry potter used to be one of my favourite movie but this one seems a little bit dissappointing. Well, i don't know, if JK Rowling is going to write another book after the half blood prince, then i'll have to agree the story line was like that. But if it is the last one, i would say that i regret to stay up late until 2am :C

the movie was like this, there were 3 scoundrels (Dark Lord peoples) yang keep on searching for Harry and Dumbledore, and they used Draco Malfoy as a path for them to enter the Hogwarts. And for the first time, in this movie, Draco Malfoy turned to become a lone ranger, quiet, depress and believe that he was the chosen one. (chosen for what? that was my Q too).

And, as i thought since the first Harry Potter, Professor Snape is an evil person as he's the one who killed Dumbledore, thus, Snape wasn't my liking either.during Harry's first class with Professor "dumbledore's-bestfriend", he found one book that belongs to the Half Blood Prince, and Harry thought it was belongs to Tom Riddle at first until finally Snape claimed that "i am the half blood prince"anyway, the story macam tergantung. Harry promised himself to cari the killer. ??? Arghhhhh.. i am disappointed!!!!catch up later.. i need to go back to subang.. daa..

may allah bless

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Plan.. Plan.. Plan..

Currently listening to : Anis craps

Today i can say that my life was filled when Anis came over to my house just because to hang out with me and have F.U.N!!!.

It was kind of amazing when she skipped her part-time job just for me. I just wondering if she wasn't there with me especially the time where i can go insane in any minutes thinking of world's problems surrounded around me. Eventually, after endless second thoughts and procrastination, i managed to begged Anis to come to my place.. *wink..wink..* thank you dear~ it is such a wonderful day for me where we can hang out together with plenty heart to heart girl's talk. My current spare time really need to be occupied before i turn insane analyzing every single trivial details of my unsettled heart and life *uhuu.. me being dramatic??*

We did planned for something.. to be rich? definitely.. only me and Aniss will know the plan.. will proceed the plan next wednesday.. Im having this melancholic thoughts of whether i make a the right choice or not, but i do believe in god's faith that is already stated for me, with good doa and such, me and anis will make it. We can change our life to a better ones..

May Allah Bless
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B.e.E.p - b.E.E.p

Being so sentimental today for NO reason ~ngeeee.. well, lets do not think of those things that can drag me into the tears world.. uh... that's pain..

Definitely the Ada Cinta song wont suits me at this moment, or can be say it will never ever suits me as i already have my Endless Love.. and he is my entirely, my love, my hubby.. hubby!!! i heart you!!!! *blush*

i still remember when i was really in bored few days back and i really got nothing to do. Nothing seriously. And i also have this sudden impromptu idea of packing up all my things as well as hubby's, catch any earliest flight to any destination with long journey duration as i love to be in an airplane with my hubby *wink..wink* well, i know that it wouldnt happen as he's hectically busy with work *sob..sob*

anyway, eventhough i got frustrated with the current condition, still i really am happy when he came back from work, he took me out for movie. We chose Alamanda. The nearest from our place. We went for 11.50pm Transformers which ended around 3am *whoaa..*
3am at Alamanda, that was my first time of being there like pagi-pagi buta *giggles* and our car was the only left at the P4 carpark. Tragic night for me as we have to walk all over from the autopay machine somewhere at P2 to P4. Hilarious though. Well, that doesn't matter much, on the brighter side, i got something from my husband when im in need of his positive vibes and we shared giggles together. That was the sweetest things..

thank you so much hun, i love you ~

May Allah Bless
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10 Line Spillage

Hajar's 10 line spillage

1 - it's much easier to spill to a stranger, spares the stigma and the judgement.

2 - it's much easier to be understood by somebody who has been there and done that.

3 - everybody has skeletons in their closet.

4 - i don't say "take a bit from my plate, chew, telan then talk" for no reason.

5 - reality hurts, truth bites, living kills, today tortures, and yerterdays are just as bad, what else is new? the only comfort is knowing we're proudly smart enough to live life the way we want it, though other will never fail to try to screw it for us, we prove them wrong. Again and again.

6 - a friend can be a good psychologist, but sometimes i doubt it vice versa.

7 - psychiatrist + Doctor + Meds = Bittersweet vendetta.

8 - there are times when we want to be vulnerable though how thick skinned we appear

9 - believing on god's love, live on because of his love, nothing can beat that, i know you'd agree.

10 - they have no idea what i understand from the word "MIRROR" because i hate what i see looking back at me.there are times when strangers are ike family and family are like strangers. Reality bites and truth hurts.

Welcome to h-e-a-r-t world!!

may allah bless
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Bismillah....


Dedicated to:-

My all: Masrizwan Mohamed

The wonderful people who picked up my pieces and glued it back together with tender-loving-care, patience and unconditional love, my anchor throughout the storm and turbulence: Mak and Ayah

My lifeguards: Angah, Acik, Adik and Baby Ily

My silver-lining bearers: jah

My very own Godsent blessings: Anis, Kak Hannan, Salmi, Jaz

My cruthes: people who cares.

Allah protects those spreading love through
its glory
Where are those who love one another through
my glory?
Today i shall give them shade in
my shade, its being a day when
there is no shade, but my my shade.
It was related by Al-Bukhari (also by Malik)

Everybody is talking about the death of late Michael Jackson. Here and there, every angle of the world. But the lost of him is undeniable. God had created us and he can take it back without a sign. Eventhough i'm not a big fan of MJ, still, i can feel the sadness of loosing him in the industry yet, i'm happy that died in Islam.
He was born in 1958, same year as my mom. It clearly shows, bukan yang tua saja akan mati, kanak-kanak juga mati, kita yang muda juga boleh mati.. it is just a matter of time.. when and where.. only god knows. Grateful to god as my mom is still here in this world with me, with dad and sisters.
Anyway, last night, i've read my diary and i did wrote something in it. Was thinking to write in this blog and share it to anyone who passing by this page (if any).

you call it boring
you call it drama
you call it cliche
you call it too much spice
as for me
i call it L.I.F.E..

WELCOME ABOARD

"... ini hikayat sebuah bicara..
bicara bumbung namanya..."

Al-Ankabut (29 : 2)
~ Adakah mereka merasakan mereka telah beriman sedangkan mereka belum di uji? ~
(ayat yang di pegang sebagai pengubat luka bila hati di uji.. when faith is put at test. Sesungguhnya Allah bersama orang2 yang sabar.. itu janji-Nya)

hidup kita tak selalunya lawa, tak selalunya ada pelangi. Kalau nak kata a bed of roses pun, duri-durinya tetap ada.. kan?
Kadang-kadang, calamity tu datang and waktu tu kita rasa macam kena gelek ke bumi oleh ahli sumo.
rasa macam dah tak mampu nak bangkit. Giving up will come at this time.
Tapi, waktu apa pun yang jadi, ingat apa yang Dia selalu pesan ~ Allah takkan bebankan hambanya dengan apa yang hambanya tak mampu..
no matter what, no matter when, no matter when it doesn't at all make sense. DO NOT LEAVE YOUR LOVE LETTER'S COMPILATION (i.e like kita punya ultimate life manual, the Quran). It is the last thread to sanity even if everything else failed.

bak kata Hemingway

"life breaks us all, but its in the end, we are stronger in the broken places"
and true... things are easier said than done. Berat mata memandang, berat lagi nahu yang pikul..
yakinlah pada Dia.. Allah Azzawajalla...

may allah bless
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